My husband moved out and I am in the process of "re-claiming" the Dream Loft as my art + dream studio.

Also, I'm re-discovering the me-I-am-when-I-live-alone-and-have-space-for-all-the-things-I-need and all the things she dreams of.

And also - my husband and I are starting this deep process of exploring... how do we have more of what we do want and less of what we don't want in this relationship?  How do we honour each other's conflicting dreams and needs? How do we put up some guard rails so we don't fall into the rut we fell into during the pandemic?

Which, of course, triggers a lot of deeper feelings and patterns and wounds that are asking for healing.

And also also - kind of thawing out/unwinding after a really hard winter in the pandemic.

It's been a lot.

And then everything got thrown for a loop last week with a new, sudden and scary health diagnosis that I'm not going to talk about online.

The thing that set this all in motion was a ceremony my husband and I did.

Bear and Snake came to my husband in dreams and he told me we had to do a ceremony for them. So we went to my friend's farm to do it, and on the drive back into the city he said to me "This is going to be crazy, hey?"

And I said "What do you mean?"

And he said "Well, Bear and Snake. There are going to be big teachings coming our way"

But I don't think either of us had any idea.

We have to trust the process.

I mean - not that we ARE trusting the process, all the time, of course.

I'm focusing on staying present with my feelings, which are wildly different from day to day.

And then doing my best to show up for myself and show up for what's happening in my life. Sometimes that includes a lot of NOT trusting the process and getting all tangled up in my feelings.

I feel very behind in everything but I also feel alive in new ways like there is this way that I can be more deeply present with everything when everything is a bit of a mess.