We are doing the 30 day journaling + meditation invitation for the month of August. An explanation of this project is here. I'll be posting an update here every day (M-F) for the month of August and I'm also doing short videos on Instagram to share things I am learning along the way.
For this challenge, I designed mugs, notebooks, magnets and stickers with the "Slow the fuck down. BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE" on them - they are here.
On Fridays I do a series of reflective journaling prompts.
I've been doing this for about 8 years - with the same prompts - and sharing it inside the Creative Dream Circle.
This weekly practice helps me figure out what I am learning and what I need anyhow to move forward for the next week.
Some of these prompts don't really make sense being shared outside of that container, so I decided to post a shortened version of it this month. While you are doing the 30 days of journaling and meditation, it's really helpful to look back each week and what you learned and what that might tell you about what to do next.
Last week’s focus was:
Get the 30 days of journaling + meditation started and let it be DELICIOUS.
What happened in the last week?
A lot of it was delicious, but a lot of it was really hard, too. Resistance, self doubt, frustration, boredom - all the usual suspects came out to play.
I started the daily posts, and found it wasn't as complicated as it seemed to do this in a public way. I am adding extra update videos on Instagram some days, and then not doing it on the days I don't have anything else to say. Before I thought I needed a plan for things like that, and I am finding just being in my creative flow with it feels good.
For me, having solid/clear/thoughtful plans can feel like safety. So when doing something that is stretching my comfort zone, I want to bring that safety in.
AND
Having it all planned out in advance can keep me from really being present in the process.
I like where I am balancing those things right now.
What am I learning/How do I feel about this?
I still feel I am in a steep learning curve around creating this new "expanded art + writing practice" that I am dreaming of. I've been getting the outer stuff in place - working on my new studio space. But there is SO MUCH inner stuff to work through.
What do I need now?
Sitting with this question and feeling uncomfortable with it then something came to me - a fun creative project. I feel overwhelmed by most of my project ideas. What if there was something really simple and fun?
I have been meaning to macramé around this hanging lap cord I have - I bought macrame cord to match the lamp (an orange star) over a year ago! I could just sit down and start that. I could get that done in a few days, and the doing would give me space to think about what project I want to do next. I FEEL BEST WHEN I HAVE CREATIVE PROJECTS ON THE GO, in all caps to really remind myself of how important this is.
Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:
Keep going with the daily meditation and journaling on: Slow the fuck down! BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE.
I've done so much to explore the slow down part already, I really want to focus on exploring the qualities of creativity, power and magnetism and what they mean to me now.
We are doing the 30 day journaling + meditation invitation for the month of August. An explanation of this project is here. I'll be posting an update here every day (M-F) for the month of August and I'm also doing short videos on Instagram to share things I am learning along the way.
For this challenge, I designed mugs, notebooks, magnets and stickers with the "Slow the fuck down. BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE" on them - they are here.
After yesterday’s meditation I had a realization:
Last month I had decided to put away my business goals for this year. Working on them felt too daunting but also I felt like I didn’t actually want them anymore, and I wanted to figure out what I DO want.
The realization was: I very much DO want those goals. But I also very much DO NOT want to go about them in the ways I have been.
And thinking back over the last 12 years - I have been so happy about HOW I have created and grown this business - all of the ways I have figured out how to stay true to myself and my values AND make money.
But as happy and free as I have felt about HOW I do things these last 12 years, it no longer feels happy and free.
I am now super aware of all of the places where I feel….. I don’t quite have the right words yet. Oppressed and impacted by capitalism and this toxic culture is the closest I can come, though I am aware that is not a feeling. I mean, are we ever truly free of it, when we live in it? This idea that you can make enough money to be free of capitalism is complete nonsense. Capitalism isn’t just about money.
But back to my realization:
I do still want what I want, and I know I want to go about it in a whole new way and I know some of the QUALITIES of this new way (creative, free, playful, expansive, healing, aligned)...
but I have no clue what this actually looks like.
ARGH. So many times I have had clients some to me with this exact same problem. And I always say “Excellent. You have a vague sense of how you want it to be, that’s more than enough to start with.”
But being on the other side, just having a vague sense of it, actually feels painful.
To know what I want only vaguely, and not know how to get there! It’s a space that invites in self doubt very easily.
Yesterday I felt optimistic about being able to figure out a whole new way to do things, and I saw what my next steps are: to create a new set of Alchemy Wheels for my goals.
Alchemy Wheels are one of the best tools we use in Dream Book that help you map out the inner and outer paths to do what you want to do, by focusing on the practices that support you in doing the work AND staying completely non-linear and following your own feelings/inspiration/energy in any given moment.
This morning I was riding my bike to the park for coffee + journaling and thinking about the new alchemy wheels I would create and then….. it happened.
As I said, this space of wanting to do something new and not seeing the way yet, is very vulnerable to inner critic attacks.
My inner critic attacked.
All of the “Why bother? What is the point? You’ll never pull this off” voices started to go off. I started to feel defeated.
And then I started to feel angry. How do I STILL have this much self doubt and anxiety about my dreams?
So that’s where I am focusing today.
I am using the Un-Sticking Station (another favourite Dream Book tool) to meet with my feelings that I won’t be able to figure this out.
While using the meditation, I had something surprising happen - instead of my working with my “stuck self” I had three different selves show up:
- Anxiety, self doubt + fear (one self, all tangled up in this stuff)
- Anger + frustration about being stuck
- I just want to give up on all of this
These are a lot of feelings to hold at once. I mean - no wonder I can’t figure out my next steps with all of this happening.
Drawing them out helped me see that these are all valid responses. Of course I feel self doubt and fear and anxiety and then of course I feel frustrated and angry about that and then of course I just want to give up.
So, starting with the me who wants to give up:
Can you tell me what, exactly, you want to give up on here?
All of it actually. Isn’t there a simpler way to live? Everything feels so complicated.
We are living on a planet in a culture that is actively killing the planet. And that's just the tip of the iceberg! This IS complicated.
But it’s not! It shouldn’t be! Your life is a miracle. YOU are a miracle. Can’t you just feel that way all the time?
I sure would like to. So when you say you want to give up on everything - you mean all of the complicated parts of life? You still want to enjoy life?
I want to sew and make art and write and make guided journals. I want to wake up and appreciate the sun shine and the opportunity for a new day. I want to feel energized and enthusiastic about my life and what I am doing.
Yeah, I want all of that too.
Let me guess, you’re going say “but we live in reality”
Well we actually do live in reality.
[We just sit with this a minute]
I have to think about the hard things. You cannot do ANY of those things you mentioned if I am not paying the bills!
Oh shit. That’s right.
But I hear you, and I love you, and I don’t think your needs should be steamrolled by practicalities. What if we make this need to enthusiastically enjoy life be equal to the need to pay bills and take care of all of the practical stuff that we’d rather ignore?
[Then I realise - this has been a week of a LOT of dumb errands. I do feel like my energy gets sucked into these things I’d rather not do. This part of me being all sulky is such a valid response to this AND there just are times when I have a lot of dumb errands to do.]
OK back to my drawing. Seems like anger + frustration is the next one to talk to.
Hello, anger + frustration.
ARRRGGGRRROOOWWWWLLLL
Yeah, I feel that.
It is SO unfair that I/you/we STILL have all of this self doubt about doing new things! This is complete bullshit!
Yeah, not just that but we also have all new levels of anxiety thanks to peri-menopause.
[Anger + frustration is kind of bowled over by me just noticing and stating how this has been hard]
Hey, I am not here to admonish you or tell you to feel differently. That’s not the point of the Un-Sticking process. It’s just that you, and the others, are all feeling so much, so intensely, it leaves me no clear way forward. I want to work with you, not obliterate you.
I always forget that part. When I am SO angry I just end up being angry at everything.
That makes sense. So do you want to tell me more about what you’re really angry and frustrated about?
I’ve just been doing this for so long. So why do I STILL doubt myself? Why is it STILL scary to start something new?
I would also ask - where does the assumption come from, that it should get easier?
Oh! Shit.
Yeah.
[This reminds me, I have been wanting to write a thing about white supremacy, the holistic wellness movement and eugenics - about where our notion that “things should be easy” and also "things are easy for GOOD people and if you struggle that means you're doing something wrong" actually comes from]
But it’s totally valid to feel angry and frustrated that this feels hard. AND it’s totally valid that this IS hard. Both are true. How does this feel for you?
I think my anger wants to protect you/me/us from how hard it is sometimes. But - it actually can’t.
Well, what it does is get in the way of me FEELING all of that self doubt. So it is protective in that way. But that means I can’t process or work through it, so I just get stuck in it.
So I am not actually helping.
But isn’t that life though? We do our best, we try to help, but we can still unintentionally cause harm.
That is life. And of course I’ll get angry about it sometimes.
How does this feel now?
I feel settled. I’m proud that I tried to protect you, and I get that how I was doing it wasn’t helping.
OK then, on to self doubt, anxiety + fear.
How are you feeling?
I’ve been listening to these other conversations. I appreciate how much these other parts of me/you/us want what is best for me. I think I was in a very reactive and immature place - I go there VERY easily. But this space to validate and process feelings, this listening to you talk with the others, helped me come back to myself.
Self doubt is a reactionary pattern, it’s not the truth of who I am. The anxiety and fear get triggered by the self doubt. (And parts of the anxiety are triggered by other things and then it all gets confused)
Do you need anything from me?
I need you to not give up. One of the easiest ways to soothe self doubt is to look at the life I/you/we have created. How could I doubt that I can do this next thing, when I look at all we’ve already done?
Yeah, I feel that.
We are doing the 30 day journaling + meditation invitation for the month of August. An explanation of this project is here. I'll be posting an update here every day (M-F) for the month of August and I'm also doing short videos on Instagram to share things I am learning along the way.
For this challenge, I designed mugs, notebooks, magnets and stickers with the "Slow the fuck down. BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE" on them - they are here.
Today I woke up super early, and did the meditation.
This time the “BE as creative, powerful, and magnetic as you ARE” came up as the thing to explore.
I filled my body with that energy and then fell back asleep. I woke up feeling amazing.
There is so much I want to share about the magic of slowing down but it’s the other part of this that I am really feeling today.
I am creative, powerful, and magnetic.
AND I can lose sight of that when I am caught up in my to-do lists.
I can start to feel like it’s the DOING that gets me to where I want to be.
Though I know it’s not 100% the BEING that gets me there either.
How do I want to balance the BEing with the DOing?
This is one of the big questions for me right now.
It’s ALWAYS been a part of my work - both my own personal process and what I support my clients and groups with.
Sometimes we talk about this as a spectrum between BEing and DOing.
But it’s more dimensional than that.
I mean - doing or not doing is not actually related to being or not being.
So, what I REALLY want to explore is:
HOW do I want to BE? Which aspects of myself do I want to live most in alignment with? What’s changing about how I want to be in my personal and professional lives?
HOW do I want to DO? What drives the doing? Which part of me is in charge of how the doing gets done? There is a LOT of auto-pilot stuff here - some helpful and some not. How do I shift through that? What are the overarching QUALITIES I want to bring to my approach to doing?
This starts to feel all vague and ethereal and like I am just going to come up with more questions than I could ever answer.
This is good!
This is a good way to explore. Questions are expansive. Most answers are not.
Try to stay open to ALL of the questions that come up for you.
And as more questions come up - sit with those questions too, and journal about that. Be with the feelings that come up. Follow the rabbit holes of new ideas that are sparked.
Don't rush to find the fastest answer, give yourself space to really be with the questions and all the things they bring up for you. That's what a reflective meditation and journaling practice is all about.
We are doing the 30 day journaling + meditation invitation for the month of August. An explanation of this project is here. For this challenge, I some mugs, notebooks, magnets and stickers with the "Slow the fuck down. BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE" written on them - they are here.
I have written and re-written this post so many times I have lost count.
Each post was a actually really good.
AND felt inadequate to express what I actually want to do with this project and I how I feel as I begin.
I don't remember being this challenged by a project in a very long time.
And so I am going to take the projects' advice: SLOW THE FUCK DOWN.
Don't try to share everything today.
Just share A thing.
A thing that's happening: I am feeling A LOT of resistance to doing this.
Sometimes resistance can hide in reasonable-sounding reasons why "this just isn't the right time".
And sometimes it shows up as inner critic self doubt attacks. Or just - getting so stressed and crabby that you throw the whole thing away.
This resistance is a natural part of all dreams, all creative pursuits, and all healing processes.
Right now, the resistance is manifesting as EXTREMELY stiff shoulders (my therapist once told me that is often a sign of struggling with oppressive systems that are pushing us down. And yes that's how it feels, I am pushing up against a lot of very powerful invisible things here) and an EXTREMELY crabby mind.
Trying to calm my mind enough to write clearly is very effort-FULL which is really the opposite of the whole vibe I am going for here.
A lot of feelings are going to come up in this process.
Dream Book members - remember our principles!!! If you feel stuck or like you're doing this wrong, re-read them.
Accepting that your process IS unfolding in the right way for you while honouring all of the feelings that come up are important parts of this work.
Without them, you just skate around your blind spots.
So - today I am honouring my feeling about not wanting to do this.
AND honouring my feelings about how I WANTED to start this, and my feelings about how that just isn't happening.
And, deeper down inside, listening to that part of me that knows this is exactly the perfect way to start.
As we go through these 30 days, I will be sharing my own journaling and process.
But today we're starting by figuring out how YOU are going to do this.
What's actually doable for you?
What makes this feel like an INVITATION and not a CHALLENGE?
How do you WANT to do this?
Step 1: pick your practice
This is a "30 day journaling + meditation invitation" and so I recommend you do BOTH journaling and meditation for this.
There is a reason why I always use them together.
But this is your thing, so do it your way.
Step 2: define your minimum practice.
Some days you may want to do more, but all you are committing to are these minimum practices.
For example, for meditation you could pick:
- Sit down, close your eyes, and breathe for 30 seconds (change this to however long feels right for you).
- Sit stare at the wall or out a window for 30 seconds (change this to however long feels right for you).
- Go for a meditative walk for 5 minutes (change this to however long feels right for you).
Either way, your meditation time is spent contemplating the theme:
Slow the fuck down!
BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE.
And just follow your thoughts wherever they go. Follow all of the rabbit holes.
No, this is not traditional meditation where you empty your mind. This is a meditation as a tool for making space to explore.
Right after the meditation, you journal.
This way you can take notes about what you learned in your meditation, to not lose the threads.
Here is your minimum practice for journaling:
Open your journal, having a pen handy, and sit there with it for 2 minutes (change this to however long feels right for you) (no you don't have to actually write).
The assignment for today: set your intentions
Write out how you're going to do this:
- What you hope to receive from this practice by the end of the month
- What time of day will you do this
- How long will you meditate for
- How long will you sit with your journal for
Write these all out in your journal, don't just do this in your head.
Dream Book members - if you want a private space to share your comments as you do this with me - use the daily mastermind posts.
See you back here tomorrow.
PS: I made mugs, notebooks + stickers for this challenge. Check them out here!
I'm also working on a whole line of Creative Dream Incubator mugs, notebooks, zipper pouches + stickers.
Two messages that my dream has sent me lately:
Slow the fuck down!
BE as creative, powerful and magnetic as you ARE
Meditation and journaling make it easy to receive messages, flashes of insight and new perspectives that can change everything.
What's less easy is knowing what to DO with those messages. How to work with them so they actually CAN change everything.
The secret is: daily practice.
Your daily practice is a container for your process of receiving information from your inner knowing and figuring out how to act on that information.
Without a consistent practice of healing and growth how do you expect to heal and grow?
You know how good it feels to do yoga, but you don't expect to stay feeling calm and stretched out if you only do it once a month, right?
The secret to daily practice is: make it small enough that it fits in your daily life AND enjoyable enough that you actually want to do it.
When I say daily I mean that's the goal. OF COURSE you will miss some days, that's fine.
But what if you had a thing you did each day that you enjoyed doing, that FELT GOOD TO DO and then also helped move your life towards where you want it to be?
This is the magic of having a daily practice with your dreams.
This is what I teach in-depth in Dream Book.
But for August I want to share a really simple daily practice out here, (on my blog and social media) and invite you to join me.
Find out what kind of magic is possible for you right now.
We start on Monday, August 1.
You don't have to have any ideas at all about HOW to do this - that first post I share on Monday will be about setting up your practice to be DO-ABLE and enjoyable for you.
I'll give you a simple practice to start with and you can make whatever changes you like to make it suit you.
And then throughout the month we'll find out what kind of magic is possible, when you show up for it every day.
I had this transformation all planned out.
A summer of slowing down. Burnout recovery. Creating a whole new relationship with my creativity and productivity. Naps, journaling, making art, eating amazing salads while also moving my workspace upstairs and creating space for my new E X P A N D E D art and writing practice.
Nothing is going according to plan. Except naps and salad, I have that part down.
I mean I have taught this long enough to know - if your "transformation" is going according to plan, you are not actually transforming anything.
So I am taking that as a good sign.
There's a lot I want to say.
I think there's a lot we all really should be talking about, in terms of sharing how this time is impacting us, the ways we choose to respond to that, and the healing that we are each being called to do.
But I don't have the capacity for any of that right now.
So I'll say: I am making some amazing summer salads. I am feeling SO nourished.
During the winter I was freezing lemons - I would put 1/2 or 1/3 of a lemon into a smoothie and then freeze the rest. Now I am using those frozen lemons and homemade lavender syrup to make lemonade in the blender and OMG.
I've moved 75% of my work stuff upstairs. I gave away my old bed frame and made arrangements for the mattress to be picked up this week.
I moved into the new bed downstairs. I have slept upstairs in the loft for the last 11 years. The longest I've been in any bedroom. This is a HUGE transition for me. The first morning I woke up and actually wanted to cry I missed my upstairs bed so much.
I know I still want to move ahead with this re-configuring of the space.
AND it's a little like being ripped out a beloved space.
It even feels like not having a home, even though I am still very much in my home.
This is what it's like, being in the goo of transformation.
I'm going with it. Staying nourished and doing what I can each day which is so much less than I wish it was. Following my intuition about what to do next which feels grounded and clear but also disorienting and new.
I am thinking about how a seed changes states to become a plant. How sudden and wild it is.
I am feeling that but in super slow motion.
I trust what I am growing into.
Even though it all looks like a mess right now.
I wrote this last week, but then I was so much "in the mess of being in the process" that I forgot to post it. This week I am in a completely different place - for one, I LOVE my new bed downstairs and have put a whole jungle of plants around it and I don't miss sleeping upstairs at all now and I wake up feeling so grateful for my home, again. When you're in the process of change it's good to remember that things will continue to change.
Every month in the Year of Dreams 2022 planner there’s a reminder to check in with your vision for your year, and space to journal about how that felt and what adjustments you might want to make.
I didn’t want to do that this month. I mean most months I don’t want to but this month it REALLY felt uncomfortable.
But here I am doing that. And sharing my experience as a way of offering a light on your path, in case it's uncomfortable for you too, right now.
As I sit down to answer these questions and I feel like a total failure.
This feels so heavy I want to just stop, and make up a story for why it just makes sense that I not do this reflection work this month.
And I say “Andrea, you don’t HAVE TO do this, but… this is your job. And YOU are the one who gave yourself this job, you worked hard for it, and now you don’t want to do it? What’s up with that?”
Oh. I do want to do it. I know that this is important. I know all of the things I teach are true and that being in the process is messy and that nothing is wrong, I just need to be brave enough to keep showing up. Can I just complain and throw a bit of a tantrum first?
“Sure sweetie you do that”
Permission to tantrum led me to just sit down and flip through my Year of Dreams journal.
I remember how excited I was back then but I realize…
Actually it was a desperate kind of positivity. Like “holy fuck this year has got to be better” vibes.
What I feel now are “Holy wow I am really getting into my own flow. Feeling myself. Feeling my future. I may be moving slow as fuck but this is deep and rich.”
It turns out I love where I am.
It’s just when I am judging myself based on goals I’d set six months ago that I feel shitty.
But I am not six-months-ago me anymore. Me-from-today is totally different. I mean, I have bangs now. I have these new outfits I made myself that FEEL LIKE my future self. I have totally different plans now.
I actually *KNOW MORE* about what it will take to achieve some of those bigger goals, from the last 6 months of experimenting with them.
And that’s why I know that some of them are just not going to happen this year.
And that’s why it feels so right to be focused on different things because these things feel needed right now.
I am re-arranging the Dream Loft, tearing down the workspace my husband had built me when we got married, and using that wood to build something new.
I am creating a new art + writing + creative exploration space in the upstairs loft.
I am E X P A N D I N G my art and writing practice in all ways. New bigger space. More time + attention. New projects + directions.
I am really expanding into my future self in all of these important ways.
Just not in the ways I thought I would, when I made those plans in January.
BUT
That doesn’t mean I was wrong.
You should literally NEVER sit down, make a plan to get your dream, and then follow that plan exactly. That is a recipe for disaster because…
BEING ON THE PATH HEALS AND GROWS YOU.
And as you heal and grow your perspective shifts so you see completely different options.
If you follow that plan that you-before-you-healed-and-grew made - you are actually stagnating.
To grow means to change.
Again, the Year of Dreams 2022 is a tool to help you stay in this process. Which means the goal is NOT to follow exactly what you said you’d do in January. The goal is to stay in the process which means HEALING AND GROWING which means surprising new things emerge.
This is how you tap into your magic to make your dreams real.
So.
Having moved through that initial “why bother doing this I am a complete failure” I now feel really proud of how I am showing up for myself and my dreams.
AND I feel excited it’s about what’s next, which was NOT on the initial Visioning 2022 section, so I am adding it now.
(You can still get the Year of Dreams 2022 and play along for the rest of the year. Six months of HEALING and GROWING into your dream! The Year of Dreams 2023 is going to be quite different - details to come soon-ish)
We had a group coaching call in Dream Book where one person attending (a very accomplished creative entrepreneur actually) said “I mean, what am I even doing?” and I laughed because I saw myself in it.
“What am I even doing?” came up again and again later on in the call as more people shared their stories.
It’s actually REALLY EASY to feel “what am I even doing?” when you are doing your own thing.
It’s natural to feel lost.
It’s natural to think you’re stuck when you’re really just incubating, or resting, or preparing for the next thing in ways your conscious self doesn’t know about yet.
With our dreams, the tangible parts are only about 1/3 of what is actually happening. So if you’re only using tangible, measurable things to measure progress, you are missing most of the picture.
And yet, this is what we do. Myself included!
The week before last I was in that “what am I even doing?” place. At the beginning of the week I was being GRACIOUS with myself and my process. I was MAKING SPACE for how I was actually feeling. I was honouring my energy.
But a few days in I’m all “OK process, wrap it up. I need to be doing something productive here”
But my process did not wrap it up.
In fact, on Friday, the day I did the Holding Space For What’s Next To Emerge class, I had my list of things to catch up on and instead I took 2 naps.
I felt great DURING the class because I always feel great when I connect with people in that way.
But the rest of the day I was still… meh.
And then Saturday I woke up feeling clear-headed and inspired. I rode my bike downtown, got my favourite doughnut for breakfast, and went to my favourite park (which has a TON of seating overlooking the river - it’s actually a bar at night but gorgeous and quiet in the mornings).
I wrote and wrote and wrote. Blog posts, emails, ideas for new projects.
It’s like all week I WAS incubating.
And then when it was time, it was a time. And everything just poured out.
This kind of trusting our creative flow is one of the things we need, if we want to create a new world.
The way our world is run on the Monday-Friday calendar and being productive on a schedule is counter to our actual human nature.
Also, we only have weekends because enough unions fought for them that they became the cultural norm. We can create new cultural norms. This is literally what humans have always done.
Humans created the huge corporations that have become corrupt and are now holding our economic and political systems hostage. They are even holding our entire future hostage by refusing to address climate change in any meaningful way.
We can destroy this and create something new.
We do it all the time.
This fall, my husband and I are going to tear apart the workspace he built for me when we got married. You know the cute one in the background of my videos? It will be GONE.
We’re going to use that wood to build a wall to create a new bedroom in the loft, in the space where my workspace was.
There’s more to this story, which I will share in time.
I just wanted to share - we can tear apart the things we built for A LOT of different reasons. Maybe because they didn’t turn out like we’d hoped. Maybe because time marches on and we change and want something different. Maybe because they turn corrupt and threaten to destroy the world.
We are the creators. We are the ones with the power.
But we need to give ourselves the thing we need in order to access that power:
- Feel your feelings.
- Give yourself space to process your thoughts and ideas.
- Take your dreams seriously and pursue them.
- Be open to the GROWTH and HEALING that your dreams are pushing you towards.
I’m doing all of this every day in Dream Book You are always welcome to join me there.
It’s time.
(I went to visit my favourite peony patch yesterday, and was so inspired by how it FEELS to be surrounded by peonies I made a peony mediation for blooming + radiance - you can get it on Instagram)
What do we do with this?
Whatever you are feeling is 100% valid.
I’m Canadian, I’m not in the US, but still - I feel it. It was a big step on the march towards authoritarianism that is happening everywhere.
So many people have mentioned to me lately that they’ve been reading up about different forms of collapse and what’s happening in the society - what’s happening to the people - during the collapse.
For the most part - life goes on. It gets more stressful, there are more and more disruptions, but we carry on with everything we can carry on with.
There is no sudden move from one way of living into the next, there is this messy transition where you’re not even sure, for sure, that you are in a transition.
And on top of this - all of the normal life stuff.
And on top of that - all of the creative dreamer stuff. You still have stuff you want to create and do!!
It’s a lot. And so: Whatever you are feeling, however you are coping, is 100% valid.
I still believe that giving yourself space to have your feelings, including your feelings about what you wish was happening AKA your dreams, is key to navigating this time.
Deeply processing your feelings always brings you to new possibilities for how to respond.
I think this will save us.
It’s not the ONLY thing that will save us. But it’s one of the things, and it’s the thing I am equipped to support you in doing, so I am going to keep doing that.
The replay from the Holding Space For What’s Next To Emerge class is available here.
Grab your journal and give yourself an hour to explore.