On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This was a chaotic week.

I had a family thing that was really great in lots of ways and completely draining too. AND... I filed for divorce. I know I was ready to do it, and I was feeling good about it, but then after it just brought up a lot of stuff. So I've been feeling pretty tired, and resting a lot and processing a lot, and not moving a lot.

It's a big step to move from "going through a divorce" to "being divorced" and it includes lots of tiring little steps.

When I look at the Dream Status Report prompts all I can think is: I am a creative dream SLUG.

Just... laying on the ground. In a garden in dappled sunlight. Not really doing much.

So... I just looked up slugs on wikipedia.

Because all I am associating them with is barely moving. But of course they are so much more than that!

The thing that stood out to me on Wikipedia is that they form this protective mucus, which leaves a trail wherever they go... and other slugs like potential mates can find them from their trail.

So when I feel like I am just laying here like a slug...

Actually I am leaving a trail so I can be found.

I am not looking for a mate, I am thinking more about my work, and showing up for our dreams in general.

I'm not ONLY moving slow and staying on the ground in a restorative way, I am leaving a trail so my dreams can find me.

That feels reassuring.

When you feel like you're "off" with your dreams, this is the work.

Show up anyway.

I couldn't do a "real" dream status report but I sat with what came up. I gave it space. Now I feel more accepting of where I am and ready to take different steps next week.

I also have this thought that keeps coming to me:

TRUST YOUR ART

And reminders of how I have made art not knowing what I was doing, and how the art led me somewhere.

So that's what I am going to do this weekend.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I made this page on a day when I really wanted to be inspired, clear-headed and ready to get to work but what I had was tiredness, resentment and a foggy brain.

Creative Dream Alchemy is the ART and MAGIC of using what you have to create what you want.

And it works.

Truly BEING WITH and TENDING DO "what you have" is an alchemical process.

It transforms. Very literally.

Your self doubt can become fuel for your dreams... IF... you really sit with it and tend to it.

And there are so many ways we avoid.

Even when we think we are feeling our feelings often we are actually doing something else! Like deciding how we "should" feel and trying to force ourselves into that feeling.

And there are so many layers to the ways we avoid.

So this thing which is pretty simple becomes extremely complex.

So, as I sat there passionately wishing and hoping to feel the opposite of what I felt, I reminded myself that that is not the way through.

I've taught this for many years. I still don't always naturally DO it. I still need to remind myself to keep practicing. This is just what it's like.

Tools in the membership to help:

There is a course of Creative Dream Alchemy here.

Once you've got the basics of it, then you work with:

Library of Dream Work practices

Library of Inner Work practices

Library of Outer Work practices

It's the kind of thing where you learn by doing... which is why we PRACTICE.

If you get in there and practice... things will start to shift.

If you wait for the shift before you get in there... get ready for a LONG wait.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I am officially "in" the divorce process.

We agreed to not use lawyers, and "just get the divorce ourselves" which is really so much easier said than done.

It's a little crazy making, the volume of things to do, on top of the sometimes-crushing feelings of tending to the death of a dream, but I am just going through it all one thing at a time.

So, when I said a little while ago that I filed for divorce, I only did the first step at the courthouse. In 6-8 weeks we have to go back together for the next steps. But by fall we should be fully divorced.

Anyway.....

Sifting through the wreckage of my marriage has taught me a lot about my least helpful patterns and perspectives, when it comes to relationships.

These big unwelcome life events can give us a new glimpse into our unconscious stuff, which is maddening and fascinating.

It's like they create a crack in the facade that we can kind of peer through.

So as I look at all of the things I am learning this question came to me:

SO HOW DO MY UNHELPFUL PATTERNS AND PERSPECTIVES IMPACT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DREAM IN WAYS I DO NOT SEE?

It feels like such a big expansive question, and I am REALLY excited about sitting with it.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

The July Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice call is today!

Get the call details (and replay!) here.

For people who are called to share their gifts in any way (monetized or not) - Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice is the DEEP creative and spiritual work we need to be doing right now.

This is the spiritual practice of really listening to your soul, actively participating in your healing and growth and sharing your gifts with the world. And the creative practice of putting it out there in the way that feels right for you, and for the people that your work is for.

This is deep work and big work and it takes time.

We have this call every month in the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership, to practice together, get support, set goals, and figure out our next steps. We've been doing this for almost two years - the library of replays is RICH.

On the page with the call details (and replays!) is a really nice version of the mediation 30 minutes long with journaling sheets, so you can do this any time.

I was doing that meditation the other day.... Ten minutes in, I turned it off.

I was with the soul of my business, and I wanted to just… give it all of my problems and ask it to take care of me.

The soul of my business reminded me that we need to work TOGETHER. It’s not here to rescue me.

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING TO BE RESCUED. It's a valid feeling, it's just not an effective place for planning out my next steps.

I felt all of these fears and doubts holding me back from being able to partner with the soul of my business, so I stopped the meditation.

THIS DOES NOT MEAN I CAN’T DO THIS AND WON’T REACH MY GOALS.

It only means… right now is not the time to create a promotion, right now is time to sit with these fears and doubts.

The inner work is a valid and needed part of the process. It’s NOT a sign that something is wrong.

We naturally have fears and doubt about our dreams. We naturally have obstacles. It’s not possible to have a dream without these things. IT’S NOT POSSIBLE TO HAVE A DREAM WITHOUT THESE THINGS.

Facing fears, doubts and obstacles are a part of dreaming.

This comes up over and over and over and over and over on our calls and in my own practice.

We feel like we’re stuck, we’ve done something wrong, we’re over in the pit stop area repairing our vehicles instead of racing around the track of creative dreams.

But all cars need re-fueling and oil changes and whatnot.

And all dreams have fears, doubts and obstacles that need to be sat with and worked through.

It’s just a part of the process. 

Can we normalize this?

This is a valid part of the work of making any dream happen.

AND

The part where you struggle to accept that fact that you have fears and doubts is ALSO a valid part of the world.

It's very layered and this is why Creative Dreaming in community is so vital. It's so much easier to work through this stuff when you're not alone in it.

Do this with us!

Join the Creative Dream Incubator membership here.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

I am really judging my dreams this morning.

I am answering the prompts and this inner critic voice just won't shut up. "This part is too mundane and boring to even be considered a dream, but this part is too out of reach..."

I use the 10 minute Dream Lab to call in the soul of my dream to help.

My dream appeared as floating wings.Not flying, just floating there.

THEY WANT TO UPLIFT ME.

It felt so perfect.

I deserve to be uplifted.

The inner critic voice went silent.

So, with the soul of my dream now, looking back at the week - yeah it was chaotic AND I did my best.

I felt flattened by this week in so many ways but my dream reminds me of the creative victories, which feel so tiny to me but my dream insists they are important steps on the right path.

Important steps on the right path.

What if we could feel that way about every tiny thing we do?

What I need next, and what my dream needs, are for me to remind myself of this more often. This is even what happened on last month's new moon call... in that meditation my dream asked me to map out the path from where I was to where I wanted to be and to draw in all these little squares indicating a step on the path.

Then it asked me to FREAKING REMEMBER THAT I AM ON THE STEPS AT THE BEGINNING AND NOT EXPECT MYSELF TO BE AT THE END.

I don't need to be there already. I am where I am which is the perfect place for me to be right now.

Which makes me see:

The inner critic has been taking up too much space and I haven't always realized that it was in charge. Which is when it can get really dangerous.

Doing the Dream Lab EVERY DAY, especially when I do it before I get out of bed in the morning, really goes a long way to staying attuned to more wise and helpful parts of me.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

So grateful for the journaling prompts because I have no idea how to start this today.

Re-visiting my New Moon Intention from the May New Moon call is very reassuring. In the mediation in that call, my dream showed me a path from where I was to where I wanted to be.

My dream wanted me to draw out many many many little squares, each representing a step on the path.

Then it wanted me to bring my attention just to the one square I am on. BE HERE. DON'T EXPECT YOURSELF TO ALREADY BE AT THE END OF THE PATH.

It's amazing how often I expect myself to start a new path and instantly be at the end.

I am here. At the beginning. The beginning is kind of a mess.

(Also, it's not the beginning it's just that I am not looking at all the path I've been down already to get here.)

But, looking at it this way - I AM WINNING! I AM TAKING STEPS!

I did all the things I wanted to do this week... but how do I feel about this?

Lost + conflicted.

I feel like I am on new ground and it's new and I don't understand it.

Which means what I need is: time and space to acclimate/integrate.

Over the last month, I started a project I have been wanting to do for years.

I've been writing this daily blog for a long time. I want to say 2014? But maybe earlier than that.

It was an experiment to move it from the membership out onto my blog, and I like having it here. I like sharing it.

The next step of that experiment was to also share it on social media - like, where people actually could read it, lol!!!! I know you are reading this, and I appreciate all of the people who are here, SO MUCH!

AND there aren't a lot of people here, compared to the people following me on social media. AND there aren't a lot of ways for new people to find me here, compared to how they can find me on social media.

In the past, Google helped with that! I had lots of "high ranking" blog posts so people could find blog posts from Google or Pinterests. It just doesn't work that way anymore.

But putting these blogs, which are my honest journaling, on socal media??!?!?!

YIKES

So logistically and strategically I knew it was the right move and every part of me was like FUCK NOW, so I didn't do it, for years.

Also, I hate Canva, the tool I was using to turn writing into "social media slides" and the thought of making Canva posts for every day of the week was ridiculously unappealing.

Until about a month ago.

Suddenly I felt ready. I realized - I don't have to share the whole blog post, I can share parts of it. And I also realized - I can look at what other tools I could use besides Canva. I immediately found Adobe Express which is the same thing, but just is a better fit for me. And it's a few dollars cheaper!

So, I've been sharing my daily posts on social media for about a month.

At first my process was really messy. But each week I looked at what felt messy and tried different approaches and now - it all feels smooth and integrated into my routines.

I write A LOT. Writing helps me process my thoughts and feelings.

Once a week I go through my writing and schedule it as blog posts for the following week, then I take those blog posts and put whatever parts I want into Adobe Express to create social media posts, and schedule them too. So I don't actually have to post every day, I just schedule once a week.

I couldn't have started this way because it's too many moving parts. It took a few weeks to get the hand of Adobe Express and figure out what fonts and colours I want, etc. Each week that part feels a bit more playful and fun.

BUT THIS IS A LOT.

Thinking of doing a thing FOR YEARS and then finally doing it and being 1 month into it and starting to feel like "I've got this"... that's a lot.

I need space to acclimate to being here. And space to integrate this new aspect of me - the me who is DOING IT instead of THINKING ABOUT IT.

If we rush this part, things can more easily fall apart.

So, acclimation + integration are what my dream and myself need this week.

*There is no Co-Dreaming call today, since we had the New Moon call on Tuesday. The Co-Dreaming calls happen on weeks when we don't have a New Moon call.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

Another really weird week.

The wildfires have been burning for over a month in my province, and in the 2 provinces on either side. These are such remote and heavily treed forests, the fires are just really hard to put out and the fires are so big and numerous there aren't enough firefighters or resources. So they focus on protecting hydro corridors, cities, towns and First Nations. Which means they could keep burning for some time and I'm just hoping there is no more loss of life and none of the fires make it into our communities.

And I feel like I am shifting from the shock of such ferocious wildfires starting in early May (our "wildfire season" starts in late July), to hoping that they will all be out soon, to accepting that this is where we are.

I am really sensitive to smoke, my eyes, mouth and throat are burning, I'm having headaches. I finally realized - Oh I need an air purifier! And I'm so glad one will be arriving here tomorrow morning.

So a lot of my routines are, again, changing.

I watch the air quality reports, because of shifting winds there is the odd day when the air is fine in the city and I can go for a bike ride and even sit in the park with a coffee and my journal which is how I love to start the day at this time of the year.

Plus the escalating chaos of the political situation next door.

AND STILL

Creatively this was such a good week.

I am still sinking deeper into my NEW ways of doing things. Moving more slowly and intentionally than I ever have in my life, and getting things done in ways that make me feel really good.

I feel aligned with the magic of the Creative Dream Incubator.

I am amazed at how clear, focused and energized I am... sometimes. Like, I can really GET TO WORK. And when I feel that start to fade, I immediately go rest.

I am noticing that when I was younger I just had more energy, and even if focus was starting to wane, I had all these ways of trying to keep myself "on track". And it did not feel like I was forcing myself at the time.. but if I did that now, it would feel that way.

And now - FEELING GOOD is the top priority. When I feel good, the things happen. I trust this 100%

So I rest more, I eat well, I drink lots of water. I am reading really good books that fill my brain with new perspectives and I'm watching trashy tv shows to give my brain a break. (Highly recommend the book Theory of Water - Nishnaabe Maps To The Times Ahead by Leanne Betasamosake Simpson)

And I just so deeply engaged with my dream.

What's magic is that I have stopped having expectations of myself, in terms of productivity. I do have a plan for what I want to do next but I am not worried about the timing.

I am really noticing how much my younger self wanted to move as fast as possible and how much that is no longer possible for me and how at first this felt like such a loss but I am starting to see it's actually a huge gift.

The soul of my dream showed up a little weird today.

It was a path. On a sunny day (but it didn't feel too hot). A paved path, easy to walk, with a slight incline, with a meadow on either side with wildflowers.

And I was like... but where is my dream? Is it at the end of the path? But I couldn't see that far.

Then my dream said - this is it. You are here. This is the part of the dream you need to see today:

It's a smooth paved path with a slight incline.

That's when I realised/remembered that my dream often comes to be as a staircase. Like I am taking steps and I should keep going.

A smooth path with a slight incline, with wildflowers on either side, is such an upgrade.

And the dream was stressing: YOU ARE HERE. YOU ARE IN IT.

The dream is not a destination to reach. I am here, in it, walking the path.

This felt so reassuring.

What I need, and my dream needs, is the same right now: stay on the path.

This feels so helpful for grounding all of these news ways of being. Slowing down. Releasing expectations. Following my creative flow.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This is another week of"Creative Dreaming in a dystopia"

I DID THE FREAKING THING!!!

And I did it while new wildfires started in my province, these ones further north where there aren't a lot of roads - and some of the roads were on fire so people were unable to evacuate on their own. I was checking the news a lot to see what was happening as the military was flying people out as fast as possible.

Not that the fires are near me or threatening me, I'm not experiencing it but I am crying a lot of tears over it.

I also finished the Journaling Kit for Existential Dread - I will have sent it out before this post goes out!

It's hard to have the words to talk about this week. I finally did this thing I'd been thinking of for years, it felt B I G but also I suddenly felt ready.

AND

It took A LOT of energy just to acclimate to "being the person who is doing the thing" after being the person who was dreaming of the thing for years. There were A LOT of feelings to move through in all of that.

And I am so proud of myself for giving myself space to do that. To BE WITH all the conflicting feelings, including an awful lot of frustration with myself for not having done it sooner.

AND I didn't actually do THE WHOLE THING. There is a whole other chunk of it to do, and I am probably not going to do that next week either. It felt really good to break it down into a few steps, and I really want to give myself space between the steps.

And that's what I need now - SPACE to acclimate to where I am.

And my dream is like... Oh yes. Because it is excited about the next steps, but if I take them without acclimating to this one first, I am likely to fall down and roll way back.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

In a quickly changing world, steady practices are... steadying.

Feeling grateful for the steadiness of this practice this week.

Checking in with my "big dream" and my current new moon intention immediately gave me this sense of direction. Like I have been wandering in the cosmic jungle and then was suddenly given a compass that shows - oh look, I have been going in the right direction.

Since January I've been in this process of "BEING the artist I know I AM" which has a lot of layers of uncovering and discovering.

The last new moon call (since I write these in advance I am writing this on the day of the May new moon call, so looking back to April) was intense for me! Messages came through hot and heavy - I came out of that call with a totally different intention than I had intended on.

And it's just now that I see things kind of coming together, or kind of starting to "make sense".

It's SO GOOD when the messages we receive in creative dream meditations don't make sense. This means we're tapping into "next level stuff". It's not supposed to make sense from our current state of being because it's guiding us into a new one.

I am moving into a new state of being and everything is... new.

I feel like I am, just now at age 51 after prioritizing this for most of my life, finding out who I really am as an artist.

This is an intense feeling! In light of this - it makes sense that this wasn't a hugely productive week. I felt like I made progress on everything that I wanted to make progress on but I mostly... vibed with my dreams.

What I am learning... and this is blowing me away... is that BEING the artist I AM has nothing to do with anything I make.

I think I did know that, when I started following this thread I was really clear that it wasn't about what art I made, it was an internal shift I was looking for... but I think I also thought that once I had that shift, some actual tangible "new way of doing art" would emerge.

Now, I don't know. I think I am learning that BEING the artist I AM is really much more about how I am in the world and how I see the world and how I express that through my life. I care less and less about "producing" and more and more about FEELING fully expressed.

At the same time, an idea about how to put myself out there in my business, which I have been circling for years, is starting to come into focus.

So - this feels like it was such a rich and fruitful week, though what I mostly have to show for it is a shift in how I feel about everything and a several-years-old idea that feels new and ready for implementing.

When I ask my dream what it thinks, it's kind of exploding with joy about where I am with all of this. It LOOOOOVES this "new" idea I have.

In light of all of this: next week I want to focus on implementing the new idea. Or, preparing to implement.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

On Fridays I do these "Dream Status Report" prompts to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.

There are journaling sheets for doing this! these are available for everyone, not just membership members. Download them here.

This week feels like it just flew by

And I accomplished SO LITTLE of what I had hoped to accomplish.

What happened? Forest fires broke out, two months ahead of our "wildfire season". A wildfire even started in my city though it was contained quickly. Once day it seemed like every time I went online, a new fire had started.

Other parts of the province are flooding. States of emergency everywhere.

I'm wondering... so was I just stressed and distracted? Is that why I couldn't settle in and do the things I wanted to do? And I remembered - well also one night I left my window open and kept waking up coughing. These days one night of bad sleep takes a while to recover from. And the burning eyes and throat every time I leave the house.

Then I had to laugh because one of the things I wanted to work on this week was a journaling kit for existential dread.... But I had too much existential dread to have the creative energy to work on it.

One thing stands out about this week:

This was just a week where I had a lot of stuff happening - all things I either wanted to do or needed to do (like a dental check up). Just a lot of things landed in one week.

One of them was a birthday lunch for my aunt, which we had in a lovely spot and to get there is a really nice bike ride. The actual bike ride I would usually take most evenings in spring. As the weather warms up and I'm excited to be out... so I usually watch the budding of the trees, etc.

This route includes one road that used to be lined in trees that flower pink in spring. I would watch that road like a hawk! Riding down there every day or every other day to not miss the peek pink flower days.

This year it was my first time riding down that street, and the flowers were already falling and it hit me. THE GRIEF.

I haven't been taking my usual spring rides because we had an unusually cold and windy spring. It would have been brutal bike rides. Then it suddenly got too hot to ride. Then the wildfires started.

I was grieving how the world has changed and how we have no control over how it continues to change. And how my simple little springtime routine feels so out of reach.

So what do I need and what does my dream need?

I need more quiet, alone time, rest and self care and LESS of everything else and I can do that.

I need to process my feelings.... my dream is tapping me on the shoulder to say it would like me to work on the existential dread project and that can be a way of me processing my feelings, too. We can work together.

So that's my focus for next week. To BE WITH my existential dread about everything while working on a journaling kit or... I don't really know where the creative process will lead with this one but I am starting with the journaling kit idea.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

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Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

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I texted a friend this morning that I saw on Monday morning:

"I can't believe I just saw you on Monday! That feels like a lifetime ago!"

(Reminder that I write these a few weeks in advance of posting) I saw her on the Monday morning of the Canadian election, after a very stressful weekend of interacting with fellow Canadians about the election on social media.

It sparks A LOT of existential dread for me to engage with people who don't believe in climate change, trans rights and abortion rights (some of the major issues of our election).

But this week I kept some of those conversations going in less heated ways, and I feel like I gained new perspective. Also, my MP kept her seat which was a huge relief for me, she is extremely progressive and hard working and always bringing up the conversations that I think need to happen in the legislature.

But also, how fucked up is it that I am SOOOO RELIEVED that this one person still speaks for me in my democratic government? And I know lots of people feel that no one speaks for them!

Also, our new leader is a very conservative person with a very conservative background who is now somehow the leader of the centre party? And the conservatives are very upset, but the left-leaning people are ok with it because he is smart and seems like a decent leader? These are wild times.

So - existential dread is flying AND I feel so much relief this week and had so much more S P A C E to focus on creativity.

It feels like right now it is SO EASY to get caught up in difficult feelings, be overwhelmed by them, get into a freeze state, and not do the things I want to do. So I am working on staying aware of that and looking for solutions.

Just this morning I got an idea to make an existential dread journaling kit - I'm not sure where this is going but I'm going to play with it and see what happens.

On a personal level, I have been so stressed by the conspiracy theories.

And I get very angry very easily. So I keep working on processing that anger. It's exhausting.

But one of my conversations led me to see something in a new light: we're in such a difficult place, between late-stage capitalism, the way it's impacting our democracies and climate change.

It's fucking terrifying to face what is happening.

The conspiracy theories give people something to blame for the state of the world (left leaning politicians and the WEF) and give people a solution - that if we had more right-leaning politicians who would dismantle the WEF, we can go back to where we were.

We can't actually go back to where we were.

That is an INTENSE SENSATION.

I know I felt it a lot in my divorce. Once all parts of you are fully on board with moving forward it gets a lot better to CREATE something better for your future. But getting all parts of you fully on board with moving forward, is a real and serious challenge.

But we were made for this. We are here for this. And we actually have no other options.

Clearly, sitting down to reflect on my week is kind of chaotic this week.

But I think this is a part of what it means to acknowledge the existential dread and make space for it in your process. My developing theory is that we can't really practice Creative Dreaming without some existential dread popping up right now.

All in all, I had a great week. I did most of the things I set out to do. I did some other things I hadn't meant to. I had a big problem with the website that sucked up too much energy.

I am learning, still, to find/create my own solid footing in an unstable world.

My dream needs me to STAY IN THE MESS. Like stop trying to distract myself. Trust the process.

And I need me to STAY IN THE MESS. And stop trying to distract myself. And trust the process. And heap on the self care so this is possible.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I went into this week with a clear goal.

There is a project I am working on in my business and I wanted to give it lots of space, and I did!

I got stuck, many times, and each time sitting with the stuck helped me learn something or get a new perspective and that helped me move the project forward.

I listened to the soul of the project and LET IT CHANGE as I worked with it. This felt monumental, like I am not trying to control the outcome from my current, limited, perspective. I am listening.

So - I did great work on the project this week and I did NOT get it to where I wanted it to be - because I changed the direction it is moving in. So it's still a success.

I am getting established in a new way of living.

With all of the changes in my life and the world, I have been looking really deeply at who and how I want to be, how I want to do things, etc. Making more space for art and all sorts of creative projects. Re-evaluating how I do things in my business and looking for ways that feel more aligned with where I am now.

It's WILD to be over 14 years in to doing this work. I've never done anything this long. So I keep learning about doing things for the long-term, and how you can get into ruts, and how a lot of those ruts are so helpful and good, but sometimes you still do need to re-evaluate.

Again, same as last week, I AM LEARNING THAT I CAN TRUST MYSELF in new ways and this feels amazing.

My wedding anniversary happened, the second one since the separation, and I didn't notice. My sister texted me about it and I was like "lol I forgot!" which feels really good. I feel rooted in my new life. And getting ready to start getting the legal divorce papers drawn up.

I am also learning: I keep falling into the SAME Creative Dreaming Pitfall that we all fall into.

I was focusing way too much on the Outer Work and that is why I kept getting stuck. Now I am doing WAYYYYY more Dream Work and things are much smoother.

My focus for next week: LOADS of Dream Work on this new project.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!

I hit a rough patch this week.

For so long now, "rough patches" were about things in my life and/or the world interfering with my ability to do the things I want to do. So it was kind of a relief to have a "rough patch" mean I actually hit a hard part in my dream that needed deeper inner work.

I created a new meditation for Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice. Technically it has all the same things in it, but they are drawn out, and more attention is given to each part which makes it easier to see what is happening.

And there are so many external and internal reasons why the way new people used to find my work have changed, and new people are not finding the Creative Dream Incubator at the speed that they used to. I know most self employed people who have been using the internet for marketing for some time are experiencing the same thing.

And in the meditation I saw what I need to do differently.

Which is so great.

AND

It brought up so much stuff. Like a sense that I have been doing it "wrong" and fear that I can't do it "right" and all of that.

All the exact stuff that the Un-Sticking Station is there to help with. So I spent a lot of time there. But I also had a lot of resistance to being there, and a lot of judging my feelings and judging my process and why isn't this easier and bleh.

And then I worked through it! And got started with the thing I am trying to do. And it felt SO GOOD. Being on the other side of our internal stucks FEELS SO GOOD!

What I am really learning is that I can trust myself.

The number of difficult things I have worked through in the last year and a half - and the way I take such better care of myself now as a result, are giving me SUCH a deeper trust in myself.

So this leads to my focus for next week which is: TRUST YOURSELF! Like, remember that you can trust yourself more than you think you can.

Which feels like a message to take forward all the time, not just for next week.

Co-Dreaming/Co-Working call is today!

We'll start with a short meditation for connecting with the soul of your dream (like the Dream Lab) and then have time for whatever you want to do - planning next week, working on your projects, sharing your updates, talking about something that is stuck with your dreams or just hanging out in the magic of the group.

Call details are here. Replay will be there a few hours after we're done today.

 

Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

If you're not a member - find out more + join us here!