My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one. AND I want to do lino block prints! First on fabrics to make my own clothes and then... I want to see where this goes.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the block print dream feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as a football field. So weird! But it feels something like... I have the foundation, the field is built, I can play here (?)

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Focus on inner + dream work.

What happened in the last week?

Yes I focused on inner and dream work AND I often felt behind in outer work. Definitely not feeling balanced between all of them.

BUT some friends came to visit so I had a few days to visit with them and that was amazing AND threw off my schedule so I can see why I feel behind.

Overall, I feel pretty good. I took some solid steps, and I feel clear about my next steps. Good week!

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

There is a LOT going on in my Dream Book, like I shared this week. I still feel like this is a really rich time of growth, healing and shifting perspectives while building my new life.

Weather wise, and with the solstice, summer is here. I feel grateful for this, I mean I know the heat will be too much soon but right now I feel that "yay it's summer" feeling, lol. I'm making my favourite salads, enjoying the fresh local veggies, and going to the park in the mornings instead of a coffee shop.

What do I need now?

There are still lots of things to do, but I feel like I have what I need. Just keep taking steps.

What does my dream need now?

The message I get is "field of dreams" and I know that that's baseball and this field is football and maybe that doesn't matter. It's like - build it and they will come?

It feels very solid and real. I have the space - I can play now.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

I want to keep the same one: Focus on inner + dream work. With my friends visiting, this was a short week, so keeping the same one makes sense.

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My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one. AND I want to do lino block prints! First on fabrics to make my own clothes and then... I want to see where this goes.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the block print dream feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

Same as last week, I see myself in my loft holding a small unicorn, but it's bigger than it was last week.

And it sends a very clear message: you have more inner/dream work to do than outer work. Focus there. BECOME the version of you who HAS this thing.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Can I take care of my dream as though it's a kitten or a baby and it's growth is inevitable?

What happened in the last week?

I continue to be on a big journey with trust! Trust is always a part of creative dreaming but I am realizing how much it's a part of divorce too, or any time when something falls apart, how we need to trust as we re-build.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I was depressed most of this week. This was disappointing especially after having a few really "good" weeks. I continue to explore how I want to be with the difficult times. I don't know if it's the divorce, the changes in my life, the way our political and economic systems are collapsing around us, climate change, all the war and genocides... it actually feels like a shift in my perimenopausal experience... but also I don't need a reason to be depressed, I feel how I feel and that's valid.

AND I had a really fantastic therapy session this week, I feel so proud of where I am, and all the ways I have supported myself and all the ways I am building the life I want.

What do I need now?

What I do need, I see because today I feel pretty clear and "up", is a list of "ways to handle depression" that I can turn to when I am "down". Make decisions about that from a clearer-thinking place, instead of my poor overwhelmed, heavy, foggy brain having to figure out what to do. And because I do think perimenopause may be playing a role here, I'd like to start tracking this better to see if maybe I need to talk to my doctor more about this.

What does my dream need now?

It wants me to remember that I have more inner/dream work to do than outer work. Focus there. BECOME the version of me who HAS this thing.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Focus on inner + dream work.

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Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one. AND I want to do lino block prints! First on fabrics to make my own clothes and then... I want to see where this goes. I've been gathering ideas and supplies and getting ready to start and feeling SO excited about it.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the block print dream feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

As I breath in creativity, light and knowing...I see myself in my condo. (I am doing this with noise canceling headphones in a coffee shop) This feels so GOOD.

My dream shows up as a tiny unicorn in my hands. It's alive, not a toy, lol. It seems like it's beaming with happiness.

It feels like - yeah it's really small, but it's here! It's alive! and it BEAMS with happiness. This is magic.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Trusting myself, trusting my dream.

What happened in the last week?

Yeah, I have been on a big journey with trust.

I've felt a lot of panic and anxiety these last months. And I have been practicing TRUST. And this last week that trust really deepened, like it feels SOLID. I trust my dream and I trust myself to show up, and keep showing up, and taking the next steps.

This comes up so much on our calls, how much our culture makes it hard to be true to ourselves. It feels like I've been working on deepening my trust in the bigger picture, that life itself supports me in being who I am. I don't think it's as magical as I did 20 years ago, that the law of attraction is the only force acting in the universe. Our culture is full of systems that we, humans, have built and are acting on us in every moment. Individuality is one of the values of dominant culture, and I think taking the individualist approach to manifesting our dreams is off. I don't just want to free MYSELF to live my dreams, I want to impact the culture to change. This is actually a much deeper trust I think... to see the ways dominant culture impacts us, to name them and shine a light on them so that we have a chance of changing them.

This is what artists do, we influence and create culture.

Anyway, this may not make a lot of sense but I am feeling the magic of deepening my trust.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I still feel like I am in a HUGE learning curve in terms of the inner work I need right now, the way my divorce has thrown things at me that I know are mine to deal with but it's just SO MUCH all at once. So... I feel everything, lol. I am learning SO MUCH.

What do I need now?

I've done so much to build/re-build systems/routines in my life and in my work. ALL the self care. ALL the creative space. I feel it all coming together, like THINGS FEEL MORE STABLE than they have since the start of the pandemic. I'm really proud of all of the steps (and even the mis-steps!) I have taken to give myself the foundation I need.

Right now, I just want to enjoy this. I have consistency and momentum in parts of my work, creative and personal life that I haven't had in a REALLY long time.

What does my dream need now?

The little unicorn in my hand is happy to speak:

I'm here! I'm alive! I'm small, take care of me so I can grow.

It also feels like - assume it's growing, another form of trust. Like if I had a kitten or a baby I would take care of them KNOWING they were growing. Not wondering if it would happen, lol.

Can I take care of my dream in that way? WHOA that feels like a good thing to explore.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Can I take care of my dream as though it's a kitten or a baby and it's growth is inevitable?

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My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

AND I want to do lino block prints! First on fabrics to make my own clothes and then... I want to see where this goes. I've been gathering ideas and supplies and getting ready to start and feeling SO excited about it.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the block print dream feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

(Working with the one specific dream which feels like the most important to focus on right now - STABILITY in terms of my work and life routines, managing business tasks and making money, settling into my new life - I want to say settling into my new "post-divorce life" but I think the actual divorce is a way off still)

My dream shows up as a mountain with stairs up it, a very elegant and majestic staircase. Similar to last week's staircase.

It feels like - it's all here for you, just take it one step at a time. So reassuring.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Bring a majestic quality to my work with my dreams.

What happened in the last week?

I shared yesterday that I wasn't sure how to bring that focus in, and explored it a little which brought me to:

I just looked up the definition. Removing all definitions associated with royalty we have:

impressive stateliness, dignity, or beauty. "experience the majesty of the Rockies"

Ohhhhhh.

That strikes a chord about VALUING myself and my work.

I talk a lot about the vulnerability of pursing a dream.

What about the DIGNITY of it?

What I had REALLY felt is TRUSTING. I had been feeling some panic and pressure and that shifted into trust this week.

I feel like this has been a theme for MONTHS but... I keep taking steps, learning things, and applying those learnings to my next steps. This is building SUCH a good foundation, in terms of the structure and support I need to be able to show up in the ways I want to show up.

Like - I have been needing to CREATE the structure I need, without knowing what that structure should be. So it's been a lot of going in circles but those circles are actually bringing me somewhere.

And this is all tied to how the pandemic impacted me! Still! the loss of my creative routines and structures at that time, coupled with being in the worst of peri-menopause, and the overwhelm in general about the state of the world... it' been SUCH a journey to figure out how to feel like I have solid ground beneath me.

I know people don't associate stability with dreams but we need solid ground to dream from!!!! Creating this for ourselves is a part of our dream work.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I feel relieved. Like I am on this climb up a mountain with my dreams right now, but I DO have some stability beneath me where I am.

At my dream's request, I have been doing a lot more meditation and doing yin yoga every night which has been so good for me, I feel so much more connected to myself. Having those beautiful relaxing evenings makes my mornings better, morning is always my most creative/sharpest brain time, and lately my mornings feel better than ever. So grateful for this.

What do I need now?

Keep doing all the self care things that have me feeling so connected to myself. Keep building the structures/systems I need for stability.

TRUST myself. TRUST my dream. It's happening, one step at a time.

What does my dream need now?

When I ask this question I see the stairs kind of light up. Lights moving up the stairs. Like - it's showing me to keep going up the stairs.

It's all here for you. You can trust this.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Trusting myself, trusting my dream.

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My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk about. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

I also want to do lino block prints! First on fabrics to make my own clothes and then... I want to see where this goes. I've been gathering ideas and supplies and getting ready to start and feeling SO excited about it.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the block print dream feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

(Working with one specific asset of this dream which feels like the most important to focus on right now)

I see a throne at the top of a staircase. It feels massive, grounded and powerful.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Remember my creative magic.

What happened in the last week?

This was a good week full of steady steps towards more of what I want.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I am learning, AGAIN, about how we have to really HOLD the confidence and faith and magic of dream FOR SO FREAKING LONG. I am learning what this means to me in my life now, how it feels on a daily basis. I am learning the self care I need to do that makes this easier.

What do I need now?

Last week I wrote about how I needed a solution for my yoga mat - I was losing having this REALLY SIMPLE yoga practice on the rug beside my bed, but sometimes my skin rubbed the wrong way on the rug, and I wanted my mat AND my cat scratches it so and it would be destroyed if I left it out AND I didn't want to complicate my practice and didn't have anywhere closely to keep the mat where the cat can't get it.

These little things really do get in the way sometimes.

In the end, I put the yoga mat in this top shelf in my closet, and took the clothes that were there and put them on the floor... not ideal, I still need to find a place for those clothes but now it's easy to get my mat out and put it back.

I'm thinking about these little things, that should be so simple, sometimes just trip us up, and how easy it is to stop doing something like yoga because the mat storage feels awkward.

And now, how that solution caused a different problem and I don't know where to put these clothes...

But I will figure that part out to

So I'm mostly thinking about how, step by step, we can figure things out. Our dreams just have A LOT of steps.

Which is back to that "doing the work of staying confident and trusting over a LOOOOONG period of time".

What does my dream need now?

My dream is sending me the quality of MAJESTIC. Which is not a quality I work with often, or even ever?

But I am interested to explore it, I see how it makes my dream seem so stable and powerful.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Bring a majestic quality to my work with my dreams.

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Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk about. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life. I feel like I am growing SO MUCH right now and my life needs to grow to reflect that.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

(Working with one specific asset of this dream which feels like the most important to focus on right now)

I see art and colour and things moving around... it feels like my dream IS SO MUCH MORE than I think. There is this ALIVENESS that feels important. It feels so inspiring and expansive.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Be relaxed and open about my dreams.

What happened in the last week?

Some weeks I completely forget about my focus, some weeks I just can't do it but THIS WEEK I FREAKING NAILED IT!

I started doing yin yoga in the evenings, which is AMAZING. I always feel better, in every part of my life, when I do this regularly. And it's been a long time since I've done it. (We had such a good talk about this on the Self Care call this week, how we can know how much a thing helps us and still not do it, and how twisty that can feel)

Monday night, while doing yin yoga, after a warm bath, with crystal bowl music playing, feeling SO RELAXED AND OPEN, this idea floated in. It is, I think, exactly the idea I needed, in the most practical sense, to know what to do next. So I have been working on it all week.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I feel so optimistic and positive and confident. I feel excited not just to have the thing I want, but to do the work to get there. It feels like a fun creative project.

What do I need now?

Last night was the first night this week I had some resistance to the yin yoga. I didn't want to do those long holds, my mind wasn't focusing, my body felt uncomfortable. What I need is to remember that my resistance is natural and to bring it into the practice. Lay there and feel my feelings if I can't do the poses. Keep asking " What do I need?" and bring those things in to make this a more welcoming space for whoever I'm at.

For example, last night I felt uncomfortable where parts of my skin were rubbing against the carpet in a bad way. I knew I'd be more comfortable if I put my pilates mat down. But I really like doing yoga just on the carpet beside my bed because it feels so simple. The pilates mat is downstairs, I didn't want to go down and get it, AND my cat scratches at it so hard, it would be destroyed if I left it in an easy-to-access place. I really wanted this practice to be SIMPLE to go to - like just using the carpet, with a few pillows from my bed.

I am going to have to figure out a way to incorporate the pilates mat that feels simple enough to not become a barrier AND protects the mat from my cat.

Things like that that seem so small they shouldn't matter really can block us from doing the things we want to do.

What does my dream need now?

For me to do ALL THE THINGS that have me feeling REALLY ME - creative, inspired, energized. All those colours and art that were flying around when I met it in the Dream Lab - now they are arranging themselves as a path. Saying THIS IS THE PATH. I get it.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Believe in my creative magic.

Dream Book members:

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Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk about. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as... I pick one part of my "big dream", the thing I am most working on right now, and it shows up as an inflatable mattress floating on water. I lay on it, feeling the sun on my body, and I feel soooooo relaxed.

So interesting! Because I DO NOT feel relaxed about how to go about this thing.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Remember that my dream is alive, my dream believes in me.

What happened in the last week?

I had my 50th birthday party! It was so good! And the "recovery" was longer than I thought it would be. I mean - considering there was no alcohol at the party and it was over at 9:15, lol. But just the ENERGY of getting ready for the party, having my first birthday without my ex-partner (he took my birthday off work every year, and we would have a really sweet day), starting a new decade... it's a lot to process.

And, my dream felt FAR AWAY a lot of this week. I remembered the "Remember that my dream is alive, my dream believes in me." but felt "Yeah but WHERE IS IT THEN because it feels so far away"

Reminded myself that when we feel discouraged - this is a part of the work, too. This is natural. This is a part of most dreams. But none of that felt encouraging.

BUT my options are to: be with and work through this discouragement or give up. So...

Also, I went to the dentist for my check-up and my gums are getting better! They said over the last few years they've seen in improvement each time which felt really good. A few years ago they were worried I would need a surgery and now it seems I don't. So - sometimes working on having better habits does create better outcomes!

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I feel a bit discouraged. I feel like I am at the bottom of a steep hill and it's so hard to take each step.

For some reason I am not looking behind me and noticing how the hill ahead of me is so much smaller than the ones I've already climbed.

What do I need now?

Then I remember how my dream showed up as this inflatable mattress/raft. And how relaxed and open I felt laying on it. Maybe I need to do the things that help me feel relaxed and open?

What does my dream need now?

Sunshine! To be out in the sun.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Thinking of that "relaxed and open" vibe, laying on an air mattress floating in water. After such a long, cold, rainy spring we are having nice weather and this makes a difference! I want to go on daily bike rides through parks - that has the same feeling for me.

So my focus is: Be relaxed and open about my dreams. (Since this is NOT how I am actually feeling about my dreams, I will do a daily meditation/journaling practice around this, and see what that brings)

 

Dream Book members:

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Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk about. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded - I realized that part over this last week.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as... a drawing of a green hill against a blue sky on a sunny day. It feels peaceful and reassuring.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Keep taking steps. I feel like I am in a bit of a boring part with my dream and that's ok.

What happened in the last week?

I'm looking back and... I don't know. It feels like a pretty averages week. I took steps, I got stuck, I got un-stuck, lol.

I've been thinking about how I have been self employed for so long, I don't panic like I used to when things don't go like I'd hoped. I do have this internal sense of stability and trust. I really feel like I've integrated the idea that I just have to keep doing things, whereas earlier on if I did a thing and it didn't go as hoped, it felt so scary because what if nothing ever went well????

And of course this is a scary economy to be self employed in! But I realized this week - it's not really less scary for employed people. The job I had before this felt SO secure, but a lot of those old co-workers have lost their jobs. And I was doing a really specific thing there, not something that would be easy to transfer to something else, ie - if I had lost my job it might be really hard to find another one.

I have been getting ready for my birthday party - I am turning 50 on Saturday. (I am going to send out an email about it on Saturday with some photos because my sister and I are working on an amazing cake and I've been making a ton of tissue paper flower decorations)

I don't want to be overwhelmed at my party, and I still get anxious from "doing too much" (I mean who decides what is enough?) so I've been slowing cleaning the loft and getting ready so there's not too much left to do tomorrow. I am usually pretty tidy, but doing a DEEP CLEAN feels too good, you know?

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I am not in a place of putting this in any kind of succinct way right now! I think I am "in process" in so many things, there is so much growth and shifting happening. I'll just stay with it for now.

What do I need now?

Still: focus on self care. And making more time for meditation and journaling - I mean it's ridiculous how much this is the message I get. More more more more MORE! But I am continually called deeper into the work... and I am habitually resisting going deeper.

What does my dream need now?

The green hill kind of "breathes". Maybe my dream needs me to remember it is alive?

Oh wow that makes me cry a bit.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Remember that my dream is alive, my dream believes in me.

Dream Book members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

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Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk bout.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as... it feels like warm light everywhere, it feels like a healing balm.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Keep showing up, trust the process.

What happened in the last week?

After SUCH a stressful week last week, this week was MUCH better. Still residual stress and anxiety but much less.

There is a level of stability and consistency I need in my business, in order to pursue this traveling-with-my-cat dream, that I don't have right now. This week I took a TON of steps with that. There are so many things, in terms of the business end, marketing and sales, that I used to do that I had stopped doing since the pandemic. And now it's like - how do I want to do them now? Because I don't want to do all the same things, and some of those things don't work now anyway, so there is a lot of experimentation here and I am actually enjoying that.

(We did a Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice call where we all shared what works and what doesn't work for us, it's a really good replay to watch!)

 

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

Again, after so much stress last week, this week I am moving slow. I don't feel like I am learning a lot - I am just taking little steps at a time. Kind of a boring week.

What do I need now?

Still: focus on self care.

What does my dream need now?

That warm light kind of shimmers, it feels like my dream recognizes that this is a big shift for me, that creating the stability it needs is a BIG job, it accepts that this will take time. It's proud of me for showing up and doing the work.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Keep taking steps. I feel like I am in a bit of a boring part with my dream and that's ok. This is the work that needs to be done right now.

Dream Book members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk bout.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as a field of flowers in outer space with stars and nebulas (?) It feels like allowing the ALIVENESS and magic and mystery of life.

I had a really stressful week with a loved one having surgery, which triggered a lot of stress from when my step-son was in the hospital for so long, and kept having life-threatening complications. I'm so grateful the surgery yesterday didn't have complications and my loved one is at home recovering. But still, it brought up A LOT of stress and my body still needs more time to process and release.

Remembering this ALIVENESS and magic and mystery feels good.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Take my next steps and keep taking them. Listen to myself about what I need from moment to moment.

What happened in the last week? As I said, a very stressful week. I did focus on listening to myself about what I need from moment to moment. My anxiety was REALLY high and I did a good job of taking care of myself. I did not take as many steps with my projects as I'd hoped.

But I did finish the new page for the Creative Dream Incubator Coaching Membership! I set up the Friday coaching calls, which start next week. I took good steps!

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I feel tired. Still anxious. Still feeling frustrated that I can't always feel exactly how I want to feel!

AND accepting my feelings, taking care of them, taking care of me.

AND I have so many things to look forward to. This weekend my Craftivism group is doing our first Craft Bombing! I made some fabric banners, people are making whatever they want, then we are getting to together to put them up in the same place. My friend is having a "high tea" birthday and I am making lavender cupcakes for it.

There is so much good in my life, so many new things opening up. Sometimes it feels like I shouldn't have sadness or anxiety or any uncomfortable feelings because things are going so well and I have so much to be grateful for, but that's not how life works.

What do I need now?

Focus on self care.

What does my dream need now?

The flowers and stars and nebulas all want to give me a hug. They want healing for me.

Healing is a function of dreaming and dreaming is a function of healing.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Remember it's all a part of it! Self care and creativity-nourishing routines and Dream Work and Inner Work and Outer work. Keep showing up, trust the process.

Dream Book members:

Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson or get a weekly journaling + alchemy kit.

Go the Library of Creative Dream Alchemy to find a practice that fits for where you are or use the Dream Lab if you're not sure where to start.

Check out the calendar of upcoming calls. Make a plan to join us live or catch a replay.

My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... last week I got another new dream!! More to come but YAY! I am loving the magic of being excited about a new thing.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream is a meadow of wildflowers and it says "Your dream is NOT just those things. It's the thrill and magic of being who you are. There is so much good ahead of you!"

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Pausing before the next step, get grounded and acclimated before moving on.

What happened in the last week? This was a weird week. I think I am more grounded and acclimated and ready for my next steps, but I didn't take as many of those steps as I thought I would. Though - I write these things on Thursday mornings, and, as of the time of writing this - I do have my schedule for Thursday and Friday mostly set aside to work on taking these steps.

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I am really tired of learning how "it takes the time it takes" but here we are, lol. But mostly I feel accepting, I am really happy about what I am moving towards, which makes it easier to access that it's not happening as fast as I would like.

Also I had an intense therapy session this week on a day that I had a big panic attack. Definitely some new lessons coming in around not trying to control the process of life, and focusing on how I am tending to myself vs trying to "improve" myself.

I've had a lot of thoughts lately about "self improvement" being such a big part of personal growth and healing - and how it shouldn't be. And I've known that for a long time, but it's SO culturally engrained in it, that it keeps seeping in.

We are wonderful. There is nothing that needs improvement in ourselves but there is LOADS that needs tending to - our dreams, our hurts, etc.

What do I need now?

Patience. To listen to myself about what I need from moment to moment.

What does my dream need now?

The wildflowers in the meadow are just kind of sparkling. It's like - they just need to live. Soak up sun and be gorgeous.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Take my next steps and keep taking them. Listen to myself about what I need from moment to moment.

 

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Come to the forum to share your Dream Status Report or start a conversation about whatever you're working with.

Get your next Dream Book lesson.

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