My Dream Status Report for this week:

PART ONE:

My dream is: I want to get an RV or camper van and travel… WITH MY CAT BEAR!!!! Create a comfy cozy home on wheels, and write + make art on the road while we have adventures. AND... I have a new creative dream which I am still not ready to talk about. AND... there is a sense of stability I had when I was married that I don't feel now which I want to create for myself, in a new way - still lots to explore with that one.

I want it because: It feels so sweet and makes me happy. And the new dream, which is more about art I want to make, feels like it will expand and energize my whole life.

When I have it I will feel: I think I will feel so happy, free and thrilled with my life. And also more stable and grounded - I realized that part over this last week.

PART TWO:

Invite the soul of your dream in (using the Dream Lab practice) to help you with the rest of the prompts.

My dream shows up as... a drawing of a green hill against a blue sky on a sunny day. It feels peaceful and reassuring.

PART THREE:

Last week’s focus was: Keep taking steps. I feel like I am in a bit of a boring part with my dream and that's ok.

What happened in the last week?

I'm looking back and... I don't know. It feels like a pretty averages week. I took steps, I got stuck, I got un-stuck, lol.

I've been thinking about how I have been self employed for so long, I don't panic like I used to when things don't go like I'd hoped. I do have this internal sense of stability and trust. I really feel like I've integrated the idea that I just have to keep doing things, whereas earlier on if I did a thing and it didn't go as hoped, it felt so scary because what if nothing ever went well????

And of course this is a scary economy to be self employed in! But I realized this week - it's not really less scary for employed people. The job I had before this felt SO secure, but a lot of those old co-workers have lost their jobs. And I was doing a really specific thing there, not something that would be easy to transfer to something else, ie - if I had lost my job it might be really hard to find another one.

I have been getting ready for my birthday party - I am turning 50 on Saturday. (I am going to send out an email about it on Saturday with some photos because my sister and I are working on an amazing cake and I've been making a ton of tissue paper flower decorations)

I don't want to be overwhelmed at my party, and I still get anxious from "doing too much" (I mean who decides what is enough?) so I've been slowing cleaning the loft and getting ready so there's not too much left to do tomorrow. I am usually pretty tidy, but doing a DEEP CLEAN feels too good, you know?

What am I learning/How do I feel about this?

I am not in a place of putting this in any kind of succinct way right now! I think I am "in process" in so many things, there is so much growth and shifting happening. I'll just stay with it for now.

What do I need now?

Still: focus on self care. And making more time for meditation and journaling - I mean it's ridiculous how much this is the message I get. More more more more MORE! But I am continually called deeper into the work... and I am habitually resisting going deeper.

What does my dream need now?

The green hill kind of "breathes". Maybe my dream needs me to remember it is alive?

Oh wow that makes me cry a bit.

Taking all of this into account, my focus for the next week is:

Remember that my dream is alive, my dream believes in me.

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