I had my new Dream Book all set up and I was LOVING how I brought my planner and Dream Book into one book.

I’d always wanted to do that and now here I am, I’ve got it… and… I don’t know, it’s not feeling how I thought it would.

(THIS IS NOT UNUSUAL! Sometimes we pursue a dream, we get the thing exactly how we wanted it only to discover this is not how we want it at all. But there isn’t another way to find this out! This is not failure, this is a step on the path).

I’m still wishing for something else and not sure what that is.

I have stuff I want to do in my planner.

I have stuff I want to do in my Dream Book.

I have stuff I want to do more freestyle.

Thoughts:

I have it all in one disc-bound book, and I LOVE BEING ABLE TO MOVE PAGES AROUND!!!  This is magic! 

But I don’t like taking this big bulky thing with me anywhere. And I don’t want to only work in it at home.

I know - I could just take the pages I want to work with with me, and I do this -  but this doesn’t feel right either.

I love using a small (5”x8”) hardcover journal for freestyle journaling. LOVE. 

I miss using a larger (8”x10”) hardcover journal for Dream Book.

I want to buy a planner next year. As much as I’ve loved the flexibility of the printables.

I also want to make my own planner for next year!

I don’t want to make a 2024 version of the Year of Dreams Planner but I do want to make a bunch of different styles/sizes of fill-in-the-date planners and offer it as a set for people like me who want to keep changing how they do it.

THIS IS SO ANNOYING.

Having all of these conflicting thoughts and feelings and underneath it all feeling:

THIS SHOULD BE SIMPLER

And also

This is probably not about the journals. I’m working through something. I don’t need to know what it is.

And also

Trying to make myself “just do it” with whatever journal I already have set up take all these thoughts and feelings and crams them inside me where they don’t do any good.

But if I give them all space, I know at some point I will work through them and understand what I want to do next.

UNTIL THEN

I don’t want to just feel stuck.

I also don’t want to force myself to do a thing that doesn’t feel right.

I’m going to do an Un-Sticking Station with the part of me who doesn’t feel right using the journals that I have.

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