Note: This is a post about my daily practice with my Creative Dreams - I often link to the tools, courses and processes I use which are available to Dream Book members. If you're not a member, find out more + join us here.
On Fridays I do my Dream Status Report which is a series of prompts I use every week to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path.
Now I do my reports on the printable journaling sheet instead of on the computer, which I did for YEARS. I LOVE THIS. It just feels different on paper.
It was a hard week.
I wrote yesterday how I've felt mired in self doubt because I've been exploring it more deeply getting ready for next week's Self Doubt healing circle. (Call details are here, registration is here if you're not in the membership)
But that's a PURPOSEFUL hard, I know I am digging into things that are beneath the surface, and clearing things out - which means I will end up feeling more free, powerful and connected to myself. And it was DELIBERATE since I chose to do it.
Then also it was hard because I am adjusting to the hormones my doctor put me on. On that front, I really was thinking "As soon as I ask for help, and get it, I will start feeling better" Well that's not how it works, lol. My doctor did warn me it COULD take 3 months to adjust and my symptoms COULD be even worse during that time but I was like "NO, things have been so hard, they need to get easier"
Well, things are only harder on that front.
The hard was MADE WORSE BY MY ATTITUDE.
Going into it with "I'm sure this will go really well for me" meant I wasn't prepared for it to NOT go well. Optimism does have a place, but it works best combined with realism, I think. Like "I'm intending for this to go well, but just in case - what is my plan if I struggle with it? Because I don't want to leave myself in a position where I'm struggling and not prepared to do the things I could do to make it easier..."
This is what I found in my practice with the Dream Status Report prompts this week: I'm acting like I am 100% at the mercy of these drugs and their side effects and all I can do it wait it out.
In a way yes that's true. But in another way, these symptoms, especially the anxiety and depression, are symptoms that I DO know what to do with. And I'm not doing those things because "I'm just at the mercy of the drugs and their side effects"
I'm not sure if that will make sense to anyone but myself, but this is the magic of doing this reflection practice every week. We learn from OUR OWN experience, we learn the lessons we need to learn.
So I am back in INTENSE self care mode and feeling much better! If I know these drugs make me more prone to depression and anxiety then I will PILE ON with all the things that help mentally, emotionally and physically.
I wish I was a person who just woke up feeling inspired, energized and optimistic but I'm not. And a part of my INTENSE self care is cutting back on "doing things" like being out in the world, so I have more time, and that time is going to DREAM BOOKING and this feels amazing.
So at the end of the journaling sheet, the focus I have for next week is: More Dream Work. BE in the VIBE!
🦄⚡️Creative Dream Incubator Weekly Coaching Call is today!!
Hope to see you there - or catch the replay over the weekend! Call details + replays are here. And after the call I'll start a thread in the forum to share your plans for the week and as a space for accountability and support.
If you can't be there live but have a question or there's something you are struggling with, send me an email this morning and I'll discuss it on the call and offer you some suggestions for things to do.
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