Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course.

It’s ok if you’re not always feeling inspired + happy to open your journal.

Today I’m borrowing a lesson from my –Free Art Journal Class on what to do on those days when you feel too sad + helpless to journal.

Hopefully you’re not feeling sad and helpless today and you can file this away for when you need it.

Today I want you to meet with your intention in your journal.

Again, using the technique I teach in my free class or anything you have learned in my classes inside the Creative Dream Circle, meet with the heart and soul of your intention/dream and see what happens today.

Each time you do this, you are clearing the channels of communication between you and your dream… so that it can help you bring it to life.

Once you’re done – let us know how it went.

Did your dream have anything new to show you today?

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram?using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook.? (I’m sharing my pics and thoughts on? my Instagram.)

And/or leave a comment below. (Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment.? Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

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?Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper.? If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• Check out the You Got This Guided Journal (and Colouring Book!) For Dissolving Doubt And Bolstering Your Capacity To Believe In Yourself!?
• Helpful video: Being Extra Gentle When Things Are Rough
• The Un-Sticking Station is your best friend any time you’re feeling down – don’t forget to use it!? It will help you transform your sadness and use it as fuel for moving forward.
• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 7 of Creative Emergence.

Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course.

I wanted to include a few interviews with journalers I admire as a part of Creative Emergence to give you some different perspective and ideas about journaling.

Effy Wild is an avid journal artist, art journal teacher, and writer who lives and loves in Southwestern Ontario.

She teaches art journaling and self-inquiry in on line classes and is also the hostess of the collaborative series of e-courses, Radiant: Faces and Radiant: Art Journals. She blogs at effywild.com.

I’ve known Effy online for years.? She is a deep explorer and wild creative being – a true creative kindred spirit. I am thrilled to be a part of her Radiant Art Journals e-course – which is starting October 1.

Radiant Art Journals is an immersion into the whys and hows of mixed media art journaling through thirteen full lessons, two bonus lessons and SIXTEEN ADDITIONAL LESSONS by Effy!

Click here to read all about Radiant Art Journals and to come join us!

Why do you journal?

I journal to meet myself on the page, work out my stuff, document my life, and play.

How did you get started?

I have been an avid written journaler since a grade 5 teacher had us keep journals for class. Journaling led to writing creative non-fiction and poetry. I suffered a really bad case of writer’s block in 2008 & 09 due to a family crisis and in an effort to ‘unlock’ myself, I went looking for something else to do while the muse was off on holiday. I found art journaling, and the rest is history. I still keep a written journal in conjunction with my art journal, but art journaling tends to take priority these days.

What?s your favourite thing to do in your journal?

I love to layer until the spread reveals itself to me. I rarely begin with an idea of what I want to do in mind. This feels like a process of ‘reverse excavation’. The more layers I *add*, the more deeply I dig into what my soul wants to express that day. I am also really obsessed with faces. The ability to create a face that captures what I’m feeling or experiencing has been really life changing for me. It is as though I can, through the creation of a representation of what I’m feeling, detach in a loving way from the feeling so I can examine it, understand it, and then reintegrate it from a place of knowing. Adding text is almost *always* necessary to my process, but text does tend to take a back seat to the symbols I use to express my feelings.

Do you have a specific brand/type of journal that you use (if yes – please include a link so we can check it out)?

I bind my own art journals out of canvas and watercolor paper. For written journaling, I prefer the Moleskine Cahier Large size. I usually glue six of them together, back cover to front and then bind it all in fun duck tape.? I buy them from bookdepository.com because they are less expensive there and they offer free shipping. I also have a journal I toss in my bag that includes an insert I can art journal on (cardstock) and a Moleskine Cahier. This is a ‘fauxdori’ journal that has elastics set in the binding to hold various inserts and books.

Do you get creative with art supplies in your journal?? If so, which ones?

In my art journal, I use primarily acrylic paint, Pigma Microns, Unibal white gel pens, and, occasionally, stencils, sprays, stamps, and scrapbooking paper. I keep my written journals in black pen – sometimes in fountain pen, sometimes in whatever I have in my purse. I don’t tend to doodle or draw in them. I just write and write ‘morning pages’ style until I’m spent.

If you want to see more from Effy go check her out at effywild.com or join Effy and I are 14 other brilliant teachers for the Radiant Art Journals course.

Again today? I want you to meet with dream intention in your journal.

Just like yesterday (using the technique I teach in my free class or anything you have learned in my classes inside the Creative Dream Circle) and see what happens today.

Remember that each time you do this, you are clearing the channels of communication between you and your dream.

Once you’re done – let us know how it went.

Did your dream have anything new to show you today?

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram?using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook.? (I’ll be sharing my pics and thoughts on? my Instagram.)

And/or leave a comment below. (Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment.? Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

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Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper. If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• For more new ideas and perspectives, we’ve got the following amazing interviews and audio classes with inspiring people in the Advanced Creative Badassery Resource Library:

Being an Artist with a Chronic Illness With Samie Harding, Change with Shannon Wilkinson, Coming Out as your Authentic Self with Liv Lane, Creative Projects and Creative Practice with Jamie Ridler, Divine Guidance with Laurel Bleadon-Maffei, Poetry is a Lifeline with Liz Lamoreux, Sharing Your Story with Susannah Conway, Trailblazing with Chris Zydel, WordPress/Putting Yourself Out There Online with Angel Sullivan

• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 6 of Creative Emergence.

Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course.

How is journaling every day going to help me change things in my life?

The idea that you can make a difference in your life simply by meeting with your dream every day can feel like wishful thinking.? But the truth is: attention sparks growth.

Meeting your dream every day opens up a channel of communication between you two.? It opens up energetic space for your dream to come into your life, which is the first step in creating real, physical space for change to occur.

Having a dream and not paying attention to it is an energy pattern.? It’s a pattern that nurtures your life as it is, and avoids change.? It’s a pattern that keeps you disengaged from your ability to create change.

Having a dream and paying attention to it is also an energy pattern.? It’s a pattern that nurtures your dreams, your creativity and your potential.? It’s a pattern that empowers your ability to create change.

You don’t have to know HOW to make your dream real.? You don’t even have to believe that it’s possible.

You just have to be willing to pay attention to it, every day.? To make it a part of your life right now.? And to be open to having that change things.

So again today? I want you to meet with your intention in your journal.

Again, using the technique I teach in my free class or anything you have learned in my classes inside the Creative Dream Circle, meet with the heart and soul of your intention/dream and see what happens today.

Each time you do this, you are clearing the channels of communication between you and your dream… so that it can help you bring it to life.

Once you’re done – let us know how it went.

Did your dream have anything new to show you today?

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram?using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook.? (I’m sharing my pics and thoughts on? my Instagram.)

And/or leave a comment below. (Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment.? Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

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Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper.? If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• Grow Your Depth, Nurture Your Brilliance is a year-long in-depth exploration of the power and magic of developing and deepening your practice.
• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work – if you don’t remember your password just click “forgot password” and it will be sent to you, just make sure to use the email address you used when you joined the Circle.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 5 of Creative Emergence.

Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course.

Remember we had our first live call yesterday and it was amazing!? People had amazing questions to explore and stories to share.? If you missed it click here to get to the recording.? It’s available for free for 1 more day.

Let’s do this.

So far I’ve talked about getting clear on what you want to get out of this program and how to work with your intention.

Today I want you to reflect on this in your journal.

What have you learned about how you want to work with your intention??

Taking time to reflect helps you integrate what you’ve learned so that it can be more helpful to you.

AND I want you to meet with your intention in your journal like I talked about yesterday (using the technique I teach in my free class or anything you have learned in my classes inside the Creative Dream Circle).

Once you’re done – let us know how it went.

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram?using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook.? (I’m sharing my pics and thoughts on? my Instagram.)

And/or leave a comment below. (Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment.? Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

And don’t forget?we had our first live call yesterday, if you missed it click here to listen to the recording.? It’s available for free for 1 more day.

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Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper. If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• I just want to remind you about the?Energy Clearing Audio – clearing your energy is always so helpful! Setting out on a new adventure can often bring up hidden fears and doubts, so you want to make sure the clear them away as often as possible.
• Don’t forget about our weekly Sharing Circles, where you can see how everyone is doing in the process of holding our intentions over time – a new one opens up every Friday.
• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 4 of Creative Emergence.

And don’t forget?we had our first live call yesterday, if you missed it click here to listen to the recording.? It’s available for free for 1 more day.

Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course. Notice that we have our first live call happening TODAY. I hope you can be there – you can call in on your phone or listen in online!

Approaching your journaling practice with INTENTION is how you shift your journal from a place to record and document to a container for healing and transformation.

The thing about intention is that you’ve got to hold it, and not put it down.

Holding an intention moves you towards it. But each time you put your intention down and pick up something else, then you start to move away from your intention.

For most creative people, the things that cause them to put their intentions down are:

• self doubt/inner critics
• lack of time
• lack of physical resources (money, space, materials)
• lack of opportunities for showing + selling your creative work

But putting down your intention to pick up any of these blocks shifts your perspective to magnify the bock and shrink your dreams – making it so much harder for you to move towards your dreams.

The truth is, no block is insurmountable.

Your creativity holds a lot of power and wisdom. You can find your way through anything. You can create the path that leads to the life you want.

But you have to, like, DO IT.

You can’t put your intention down every time something else wants your attention.

When you learn how to hold your intention no matter what you create space for your dreams to emerge in your life in really beautiful and ease-full ways.

It’s not about struggle and sacrifice and working your ass off, it’s about aligning with your inner truth and growing gleefully? into the fullness of your potential.

This is your Creative Emergence.

The Creative Emergence e-Course seeks to provide you with a tangible experience of holding your intention over time – soulfully and creatively of course – so you can get a taste of what is really possible for you.

To serve this aim, we’re going to keep things simple.

The simplest way to work with intention in your journal is to use your journal as a place to meet your intention every day.

My free introductory course gives you a simple and crazy effective way of doing this. If you haven’t done that yet, start there. (Don’t worry about getting “behind” in this class – this is non-linear work, there is no “behind”. You are where you are and that’s perfect.)

Using your journaling time to meet with your intention, and having a commitment to keep doing this every day, is a form of holding your intention. It brings your intention into your energy field and helps it start to make a home for itself there.

Your daily commitment to this practice lays the groundwork for your Creative Emergence.

For today, just say hello to your intention in your journal.

Give it some love and attention and TIME.

Write out what comes to mind as you meet with it.

You might want to draw or collage it or write a love letter – how do you want to play with your intention in your journal today?

We’re going to explore this together on our free Creative Emergence call today.

Once you’re done – let us know how it went.

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook. (I’m sharing my pics and thoughts on my Instagram.)

And/or leave a comment below. (Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment. Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

And don’t forget we have our first live call happening TODAY. I hope you can be there – or make a plan to listen to the recording ? it will be available for free for 48 hours and will stay available inside the Creative Dream Circle after that.

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Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper. If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• There’s the really fun How To Stay In The Magic Teleclass
• This video about making your own inspiration cards as a way of helping you hold your intention.
• The Creative Dream Incubator e-Course leads you through every aspect of working with your intention and journaling your way to your dream come true. This e-course includes 6 full workbooks, 6 guided meditations and 24 videos that lead you in-depth through the whole process.
• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 3 of Creative Emergence.

And don’t forget we have our first live call happening TODAY. I hope you can be there – or make a plan to listen to the recording ? it will be available for free for 48 hours and will stay available inside the Creative Dream Circle after that.

Click here for everything you need to get started with the Creative Emergence free 30 day e-course. Note that we have our first live call happening TOMORROW. I hope you can be there – you can call in on your phone or listen in online.

The Creative Emergence e-course leads you through the process of journaling your way into new possibilities.

This begins with making a commitment to journal every day for the next thirty days.

Some days you might be able to spend an hour playing in your journal, some days just 10 minutes.? It doesn’t matter how long you journal, it does matter that you establish a daily habit of making time to meet yourself in this way.

As you show up day after day, you are creating space for new possibilities to emerge.

Essentially, your journaling practice becomes your container for healing and transformation.

Your commitment to showing up every day no matter what coupled with your intention for Creative Emergence builds and strengthens this container.

The stronger your container, the bigger your new possibilities become.

This is why we start with a clear intention.

Journaling prompts for starting out:

What is YOUR creative emergence going to be about? Today you’re going to journal about what you want to get out of this 30 day adventure.

• It can be to make a little time for yourself each day.
• It can be to help you deal with anxiety, inner critics or fear.
• It can be to help you get in touch with your dreams.

And then once you have that written down, ask yourself why.? Why do you want this?

For example:

• I want to make a little time for myself each day so that I can feel less like I am being pulled in a million different directions.
• I want to deal with this specific anxiety/inner critic/fear because I know that it is holding me back and I am ready to move forward.
• I want to get in touch with my dreams because I want to live more authentically and I know my dreams can lead me there.

Understanding why you want what you want helps ground you in your commitment to really do this.

There is a big difference between pushing yourself to do something because “it’s good for you” or because “you said you’d do it every day” and doing it because you are deeply committed to the process and wildly excited about the changes it’s going to bring into your life.

Though you don’t always have to be excited or feel ready – you just have to show up.

Once you’re done – share your intentions with us in the comments section below.

(Yes, you will need a Facebook account in order to comment.? Apologies to those of you who don’t have Facebook.)

Share your daily journaling pics on Instagram?using the #creativeemergence hashtag, or post them here on Facebook.

(I’m doing this class too!? I’ll be sharing my pics and thoughts every day on my Instagram.)

And get ready to join us for the live call tomorrow (or make a plan to listen to the recording – it will be available for free for 48 hours and will stay available inside the Creative Dream Circle after that).

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Because I loooove my Circle members, I’ll be posting links to resources inside the Circle in most of these posts so they can dive into the lessons a little deeper.? If you’re not a Circle member you can just ignore this part – or join us!

• I’ve got a video with more tips on how to work effectively with intention right here.
• If you’re struggling to choose an intention for this, listen to the Dream-Finder Coaching Circle where I helped a group of people find their dreams.
• And the Desire Is How Your Soul Speaks To You And Guides You Along Your Path video may be helpful – desire always knows.
• We’ve also got a private forum inside the Circle for sharing your Creative Emergence photos and stories if you’d rather not do that publicly.

You’ll need to be logged into your Creative Dream Circle account for these links to work.

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See you back here tomorrow for day 2 of Creative Emergence.

Creative Emergence is starting on September 1.? This is a free 30 day e-course happening right here on my blog (plus there will be 3 live calls where you can ask questions and get help – get all the details for how to participate here).

This course is a strong and sturdy container for growing new possibilities in your life.

So – what do you want to grow?? Since you’ve got a few weeks before you begin, now is the perfect time to be exploring that.

I’ve been journaling about this and every few days I have a new idea for what I want to create.

I’m finding this frustrating but it’s a part of the process – sometimes dreams need us to pay attention to them before they fully reveal themselves to us.

So pay attention. Journal about this every day, even if just for 5-10 minutes (Curious about how that works?? Check out my post on journaling that explains why journaling is magic and how to get the most out of it)

A little help from my Journaling Cards for Magic + Insight:

If you ask yourself this question every day and write out honest answers you’ll be well on your way to clarity.

And then on September 1 you’ll be ready to dive into the magic.

I can’t wait to explore this with you!

The big theme in my journaling practice for Grow Your Depth, Nurture Your Brilliance (the year-long journaling program I’m doing in the Creative Dream Circle) this week was this: there are 2 ways to pray.

One way is how most people do it.

The other way is not just more effective – it actually turns you into a dream magnet.

The first way: From a rigid ego place of asking for what you want then waiting until it shows up in your life exactly as you expect it should look like.

This doesn’t work and can make you pretty miserable in the process.

But for some reason, we’ve all got a part of us who really seems to think that this is the way.? That we somehow have every right to expect the universe, in its infinite wisdom, to bow down to us and our limited vision and to hand it over and to have it look exactly how we think it should.

The second way: From a place of openness and wonder and connection to the miracle of life where you ask for what you want and then stay in the process of receiving it.?

The real work here is in building an internal sense of trust and deepening/maturing your relationship with your spirituality.

Trusting that your prayer was heard and granted, which means remembering that the universe has an infinite perspective and you have a teeny tiny extremely limited perspective and so trusting that the universe can respond to your prayer in the most appropriate way.

In other words, remembering that you don’t control the universe.

Not only is giving up on trying to control the universe a huge relief and a big energy-booster, it means you can open your eyes to all the ways your prayer has already been granted.

When you let go of what you think it “should” look l like you get to have what you want, right now.

Because it’s already here for you.

In a decade of working with people to help them bring their dreams to life this remains consistent: what you need is already here for you.? The essence of your dream is ALWAYS accessible to you.

You just have to crawl out of your bullshit stories and sit with the truth long enough to see it.

Taking this approach also means being willing to do your part.

You don’t just stand back and wait for your package to arrive before you believe that your prayer was granted – that’s the childish relationship to spirituality.

When you really believe that it’s on the way you act differently.? You do all the things that are in front of you to do in service to your prayer.? You deal with your fears and doubts.? Physically and energetically – you clean up make space for the thing in your life.? You take steps to meet it.

You turn your life into a welcoming atmosphere for dreams.? You turn yourself into a dream magnet.

Here’s the kicker: once you say your prayer you have to accept that whatever happens next is the prayer granted.

Everything in your life is happening in response to your clear intention.?

I’ve got a lot of stuff coming at me right now.

Nothing earth-shattering or anything, just a lot of things (good things and not-good things) are coming my way both personally and professionally, causing me to feel overwhelmed and stressed out.

Until I remind myself that everything is happening in response to my clear intention.

So I must NEED to have a lot of stuff coming at me.

Why?? Where’s the gift/lesson in this?? How can I work with it?

How do I unwrap this gift?

Am I willing to sit with my discomfort long enough to even see the gift?

Looking at it in this way immediately changes my relationship to it.

Everything that happens is a gift.

How you respond to the gifts determines what your life looks like.

Not that this is easy – this is the advanced practice of living an openhearted life.? And the thing about practice is that you have to keep practicing.

I want to write more about that – about how hard it can be sometimes to practice as a way of living.

Right now I can say that the more you keep practicing the more you become a dream magnet.?? And that the more evidence you see in your life that it’s working the easier it gets to stay in the process.

And that making the practice as enjoyable as possible really, really, really helps.

All of my training as a spiritual teacher was dry, dry, dry.? All of the emotional healing work I did was scary and hard. So when it came time for me to set up my classes and services I knew I had to bring in the stuff that helped me stay in the process: CREATIVITY and PLAY.

That’s where the fuel comes from for me to stay on the path.

What fuels your path?? What keeps you going when it’s too hard?? If you don’t know – explore, find out.

I?ve been feeling extra-easily overwhelmed lately so I took it to my journal and then my journal asked me to share it with you so here it is.

(Yes you can still get my Journaling Cards for Magic + Insight right here)

My journal showed/reminded me how the world is chaos – the outer world.

We made the outer world this way because we (I mean we, the human species talking in very general terms) are disconnected from our truth – the truth of who we are, the truth of what life actually is.

Spirit is calm.? Peace and love and all the good stuff.

I live in between, in this quiet, calm space.? I built my life as it is today out of qualities like simplicity, spaciousness, order, mindfulness, creativity, quiet because the power to change the world doesn’t live in the world.

That power lives closer to spirit.

We created this world of chaos out of a place of disconnection.? Re-connection is the path to changing the world in a sustainable and lasting way.

Re-connection is my job – my own re-connection and helping others with their re-connection.

This is the first step in moving the species towards the power to create the new world, one where we’re all free and safe and happy.? A world where we recognize the beauty of the world, of ourselves and each other, and live in alignment with that instead of living in alignment with a weird corporate nightmare.

I believe we can only create that world from a place of deep connection to the qualities that we want that world to be full of: freedom, safety, peace, joy.

But I know when I get too close to the chaos I find it hard to remain deeply connected to these qualities.

So it’s like I stay a little separate from it in order to be of service to it.

But then sometimes I wind up too separate to be of service.

This is the same process through which all dreams come to life.

I’m talking about a global scale right now – how we have to tend to the needs of the world as it is now while also creating space for a new way of living to emerge.

But it’s the same thing for anyone who wants to leave their corporate job and live a more authentic life and can’t figure out how to pay the bills in the meantime.

You have immediate needs that need to be taken care of.? But if you spend all of your time taking care of your immediate needs you’ll never move towards the life you actually want to be living.? You keep yourself stuck where you are.

If you want a new life you not only have to devote time and energy and attention to building it – you have to build it from a place of already being there, energetically anyway (for Creative Dream Circle members I show you how to do this in the Creative Dream Incubator e-Course).

Anyway, back to my journaling today.

Really what life is pushing me to explore is how do I bring my inner peace and calm with me as I move closer to the chaos?

Because the chaos isn’t all bad.?

Hmmm, well this is embarrassing.

I know how to do this already working with energy and Creative Soul Alchemy.? I don’t just know how to do this already I teach this for a living.

So why has it been feeling so complicated and overwhelming lately?

Well, change is hard.

And if I’m really honest it’s because I’ve been lazy with this stuff lately.? Well, not lazy exactly, but my life is set up with so much intention and deliberateness that my routines and ways of being support me in living in deep connection almost on auto-pilot.

I don’t have to think about what I need because I already have it.

And as life changes what I need changes and I most certainly do have to think about it.

So, here I am thinking about it.

And I can see that the secret to how to do this actually lies in the overwhelm.

Every time I get overwhelmed I just want to cry and I’m embarrassed for crying and just want to run away from the whole thing.? Then, days later as I sort through what it was that got me so triggered I learn something new about what I need.

So what if I see the overwhelm as the gift that it is?? And stay present with it right then when it comes to me?? And bring clarity in to show me exactly what the overwhelm wants to teach me?

Then the overwhelm can show me how to create what I want here, closer to the chaos where a whole new set of possibilities live.

Hmmm…