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Today I am meeting my dream

It's such a weird day. That big storm that was all over North America landed here last night and dumped a ton of snow. Today there is supposed to be more snow and so much wind we won't have any visibility by this afternoon. So Joseph is working from home.

I'm meeting my dream and there is a field of snow, of course, lol. But when my dream shows up, it shows up as flowers peeking out of the snow. Flowers calling in the spring.

I get this sense of trust. It's growing and blooming.

I lay back in the snow, comfortable and happy. Thinking of how great it feels to TRUST my dream and enjoying the feeling...

And then I know what I need to do next. GET VERY CLEAR about the next steps, which are incredibly vague right now. I'm going to journal about:

• what I want to do
• all the ideas I have for how I can do it
• which idea feels best? --- make a plan from that one

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I started the day with the  Dream Self practice again.

Such a treat to connect with me-who-already-has-the-dream. It feels so joyful, grounded AND expansive all at once.

Then I gave myself lots of journaling TIME but didn't do a lot of actual journaling, mostly just sitting with my thoughts and feelings. Some days it's like that.

I finished the embroidered "magic all seeing butterfly" dress and wore it for the first time yesterday.

This feels like stepping into my next level dream self, my next level of self expression.

I had an intense therapy session, talking about the things that have been shifting for me since 2016, the world and personal life events that have impacted me, how I've been pushed deeper into my own healing and growth and - what I want to do with all of this. It felt like a "gathering it all up and getting ready to move into my next phase with it" kind of thing and today I feel EXHAUSTED.

I went for a bike ride to the coffee shop to journal this morning, which usually energizes me, especially when I haven't done it in a while and I was home all of last week with strep throat, but that just tired me out.

Today is not a day for big action.

HOWEVER

I've been thinking a lot about Marketing as a Creative + Spiritual Practice and about my personal practice and what's happening there and I have ideas I have not been acting on.

So I decided to ACT.

I had done some writing and broke it up into a few social media posts. I didn't have the energy to come up with images so I turned into into "text posts" just to GET IT DONE.

It feels really good to put this writing OUT THERE (I posted one, and have another draft scheduled) instead of knowing "I have this writing I want to share... someday...."

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I am feeling fully recovered from strep throat!

But "getting back into it" feels kind of weird. I re-read last week's Dream Status Report because it was hard to remember where I am, lol.

That reminded me of my focus for this week: Dream Book + journaling/processing first thing every morning.

I started with my planner, because last week everything fell apart, I moved things into this week, wrote out all my plans, etc. This helped me feel more grounded and present with this new week.

Then I went through my Dream Book and the Dream Self practice stood out as the one to do today.

I always forget how magical it is to BE that version of me who already has my dream.

I laid on my bed to do this, and had to pick up my cat Bear to do so, and put him on me, and then I felt, since I disturbed him once, I shouldn't disturb him again, so I stayed in it until he moved.

So good!

I felt so much JOY about having the dream and none of the ambivalence I can sometimes feel. None of the panic about "will this be overwhelming?" and all of that. Just JOY.

I do believe the FEEL worthy of your dreams call is helping with that. And Ia m looking forward to the Be OPEN + RECEPTIVE to your dreams call this month.

As I was connecting to my Dream Self and looking at the path I was thinking... I don't think I need to do anything different to get to this dream. It's more about doing the things I am doing but while feeling OPEN and JOYFUL and RECEPTIVE.

Which seems silly, but I can get into "work mode" which definitely feels very different from how I felt in this meditation. I'd like to experiment with staying in this "dream self mode".

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What are you up to today? Let us know in the comments!

Tell us what you're working on, struggling with, ask questions, share your goals, etc, in these daily posts. This is a great way to put stuff "out there" where only people who "get it" are going to see it.

On Fridays I post my Dream Status Report which is a series of prompts I use every week to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path. The prompts are here. You can do them with me, or do your own thing.

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Feeling Worthy of your Dreams is re-sheduled to Saturday, April 1.

I haven't been feeling well all week, but leading a meditation, especially this one, didn't feel like "too much" ... until yesterday when I realized I do need a few more days.

I haven't had the energy I wish I had this week, but I have been working on my project from bed. Since I had so much writing/planning done, I could just do the "drawing it out on the tablet" part which is the easiest part for me, so I am really glad I had that to do.

I am trying to remember that it's ALL a part of it.

That life and dreams are not separate. That I am not "off track" it's always a matter of meeting myself where I am and moving towards where I want to be.

And today what I want is: to feel grateful and patient.

I don't have the mental clarity for anything more than this today, but I am holding onto this wish to not feel so sorry for myself, to feel more grateful and patient.

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I'm actually having a hard time doing the thing I want to do, because I feel so impatient that it's taking so long. So I decided to have a conversation with my impatience:

Hey, Impatience.

Grphph.

Yeah, so you don't want to have a chat with me?

NO! I want us to get to work! I want us to be done this stuff already!

Yeah, I am excited about this project and excited to see it finished too, but I also really want to enjoy the process and you are making that hard.

I don't mean to make it harder to get this done, I just want to make it happen faster.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Isn't it obvious? Because I want to be done! I want to move on to the next thing!!!

But that's so nonsensical. We haven't DONE this yet. I want to ENJOY THE MAKING OF THIS. Isn't that a part of it?

Oh. Whoa. I forgot about that part. I was just thinking about enjoying the sense of accomplishment, but also about other things I can build from this, like this is the foundation for the next things.

I'm with you, this is the foundation for lots of other things and I am happy about that but I need space to enjoy this process right now. Like OMG WE ARE DOING THIS! THIS IS SO FUN AND AMAZING!

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After that, I thought about how it's ok to have conflicting feelings, and probably I'll always have parts of me who want to be ahead of where we are. And I love dreaming of what's next... but I want to be BE WHERE I AM and enjoy where I am. I want this to be my dominant feeling.

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Don't judge your dreams!

This is from the first super-rough draft of my Creative Dreaming is a Practice book (these two ideas are staying in the book, but not written in this way):

There are two rules of Creative Dreaming:

1. All of your dreams are valid, important and needed. No exceptions.

NO JUDGING YOUR DREAMS!!

Your dreams may feel impossible and that impossibility might break your heart. Still - don't judge them.

2. Be honest. ALWAYS bring your honest reactions, thoughts, ideas and feelings to your Creative Dream practice.

Your Creative Dream practice will be messy, uncomfortable, awkward, painful, boring and annoying at times. And it will also be inspiring, elevating, healing, magical and energizing at times.

Trying to avoid or suppress the uncomfortable parts will stop your flow.

 

I've been sitting with these places where I absolutely DO judge my dreams, and make up "rules" to justify why some things I want "are dreams" and some things "are just goals".

I think we all get to decide this for ourselves - what's a dream and what's not, and setting goals, especially goals that lead to our dreams, is a good thing!

A dream feels magical and special to me, because I feel so happy to contemplate having it AND because the process of getting there includes so much healing and growth.

But don't all goals do that too? Is it just that a goal feel more achievable? Maybe needs less Dream Work and Inner Work to get it done?

My point was: wanting what you want is MAGIC

Letting yourself really WANT what you want. ALL OF IT. Not getting all in your head about if you deserve it, or justifying it, or all of those things. Just wholeheartedly wanting what you want.

I am sitting with that this morning. Nothing all the little "yeah buts" that come up. All the places where this feels uncomfortable.

Where are I judging my dreams?

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What are you up to today? Let us know in the comments!

Tell us what you're working on, struggling with, ask questions, share your goals, etc, in these daily posts. This is a great way to put stuff "out there" where only people who "get it" are going to see it.

On Fridays I post my Dream Status Report which is a series of prompts I use every week to help me have more clarity, momentum and groundedness on my path. The prompts are here. You can do them with me, or do your own thing.

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Just a plain kind of day, taking little steps with my dreams.

But then I noticed - I am really easily distracted. So i decided to go to the Un-Sticking Station and see what's up.

Hey, distraction. Can we talk?

Sure! Anything but actually work on this project, right?

Well that's what I wanted to talk about. Like, why are you here so much today? I really want to work on this project.

Do you though? It kind of seems like you don't really have a handle on it. 

I'm in the creative process! I'm figuring it out! I'm not at the places where I have all the answers yet.

That's so annoying.

Well yeah. But it's also a part of the process. And I'd like to work through this part of the process and get a better handle on it and make more progress, but you keep stopping me.

Because this sucks! It's also sooooo much work. Like I can't look at all that work we'll have to do. I just can't.

But this is the work we WANT to do. Like, I really want to do this, don't you?

Ummmmmmm....

I need you to tell me the truth.

I'm scared. I have such high hopes for this, what if it flops? What if I never get a handle on it? What if it keeps feeling so unruly and like, what if I can't make it be as good as I think it can be? This sucks. So yeah I'd rather distract you than be with all of this fear and uncertainty.

Yeah. Thank you for sharing that. I totally resonate with that. And I want to remind you of all the things we've been through the creative process with other projects, and how worth it is, in the end.

That's nice but that's not changing my mind about anything.

Yeah, I know. And look I don't want to fight you on this every step of the way!

I don't mind fighting you every step of the way. That's what I am here for.

I mean - how can we work together? How can we approach this in a way that works for you, too?

Hmmmm

Hmmmmm

Ok so I do like to have my fears acknowledged. 

Yeah, I can see how scary this is. My shoulders feel all tense right now.

And I know that distracting you and procrastinating on the project doesn't fix that. I mean, I actually am just dragging this out and making us both more uncomfortable.

That's a fantastic awareness. I'm really proud of you for spotting that.

What if I can co-exist with the part of you who is most excited about this project? Like, me, the part of you who is most stressed out and uncertain and afraid of this project, can I have a seat at the table?

Yeah, I like that. If you have a seat at the table, you don't need to distract me. You can just speak up and be heard. Is there anything you want to say about the part we are working on right now?

This part is scary. Because you are setting the stage and if you don't set the stage right, people won't get it, and the whole thing will suck.

Yeah, I see that. Though I ALSO think it's true that I am seeing so many more details here than anyone else ever could. And we could benefit from realizing about it, trusting the people reading it to understand... though we also do need to recognize some of these concepts are new and strange to people and maybe we do need to break things down smaller and smaller... and also how about that idea about "beta testing" it as we go?

Yeah, I think right now, like this week, we focus on finishing the part, at least the ideas we have so far. And then next week work on a plan for beta-testing as we go. I think this would feel better that way.

Great! Let's do this...

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I AM FEELING IT TODAY!

I did have to push myself to go for the walk this morning, but I thought about HOW GOOD I would feel once I'd done it, and that got me moving.

I didn't got for a morning walk at all last week, getting back into it changes everything! There are things that WE KNOW make us feel good, and it can be so easy to not do those things. But we've got to do them!

Also, the woman who works at the coffee shop talked about how ANGRY she is at the city for not maintaining the sidewalks better, and how FRUSTRATED she is about the winter temps sticking around and how much she wants to get her bike out, too. Having my feelings mirrored back to me like that felt validating.

Remember on the Slow the fuck down! BE as powerful, creative and magnetic as you ARE call I talked about being magnetic and my favourite example being when the things I was going to pick up at the grocery store ended up being on sale? Well today I stopped to get bubble bath, and the one I wanted was 50% off. So that felt like a wink from the universe.

For my practice today:

I met with the soul of my dream, and the soul of my new project showed up too. It felt like the new project is there to support the dream... but then I also saw how I have SO MUCH ENERGY for the project right now, and it felt like a confirmation that this is what I should focus on.

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After feeling off last week, I really wanted this week to feel better. I cleaned my space (ahhhh that makes such a difference!) and prepped healthy delicious food for the week and got a lot of sleep. Not that those things overcome everything, but they did really help.

I had a dream last night that I AM MORE THAN I THOUGHT I WAS.

It felt like a ceremony. And it feels like the last three years were all preparing me for this. I have felt stalled somewhat creatively in the last three years, and it's just been coming back this year. But looking back, I don't know that I was "stalled" as much as "incubating", you know?

AND all of the content I wrote for the "Feel Worthy Of Your Dreams" call feels like it's FOR ME.

I am sloughing off old self concepts and stepping into a new space.

So I am sharing the post I put on my blog/social media:

YOU ARE WORTHY OF YOUR BIGGEST DREAMS.

We all have a ceiling on what we think is actually possible for us, and that ceiling isn't about reality it's about our own self concept, which is completely malleable.

Though I don't believe we should be constantly pushing on that ceiling in the name of "dreaming bigger".

It's that we have a mental concept of "right size" "too small" and "too big" and sometimes our dreams push up against that, and so we try to shrink our dreams into what feels do-able.

But your dream is your soul speaking to you.

So, instead of trying to shove it into a smaller container that fits with your current sense of what is possible for you, how about you listen to what it's actually saying?

You are worthy of your BIGGEST dreams.

I'm not saying "get out there and work your ass off and make it happen" I am saying: how about giving yourself permission to want what you want? To give yourself space to consider... what do you REALLY want?

Yes, you live in a world that is hostile to dreams. Yes, compromises may need to be made. Yes, the world will judge and belittle your dreams and ask you who are you to think you can do this?

Your dream is your soul calling you towards your true self. There is magic and power in this.

And there is a big difference between going after your dream and landing on a compromise, and making compromises about what you will ever allow yourself to dream about.

Your dream is here to heal and grow you. But it can only work it's magic if you accept it.

FEELING WORTHY of your dreams Zoom class and healing circle is happening March 30 at 1:00 pm Central (North America). Replay provided (I am doing this one mostly for the replay - to have this healing circle available to all members right in those moments when you feel not good enough)