I was journaling and hit upon the PAIN I was feeling about not engaging with life the way I want to.
And then I saw it: how I have been too frustrated with myself about not engaging with life the way I want to that I couldn't even see how PAINFUL it was!
So then I used the Un-Sticking Station practice on my frustration.
And there are so many layers swirling around there.
Compassion for myself.
Knowing that I am doing the best I can.
Frustrating and feeling like I am "too lazy" and "moving too slow" and need to just... do more art. Just move faster in general.
Acceptance that I am taking care of myself and my life and this is all a lot and no I don't currently have the same creative energy I used to.
Underneath that some excitement that I can have DIFFERENT creative energy. That this is just a season of my life.
And then also the acknowledgement of creatively active I HAVE been. And that thing how creative people always see the things they haven't done yet, we can be so flooded with inspiration that our "done" pile is just so tiny compared to the "want to do" pile.
But mostly, I am taking from this an appreciation that there is PAIN here. It feels small and vulnerable, hidden under the frustration. But it feels more TRUE than the frustration and I want to honour that.
Maybe it is some grief about the stage of life I am in. I keep thinking about my 35 year old self and missing that version of me. So I could look at how I want to bring some of her qualities out more...
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